26/07/2026
Caitlin’s story in her own words shared with many thanks. I’m sure many of you will relate.. 🥰
✨My first birth stripped me bare. I questioned everything I believed about myself and every plan I had laid out ahead. Unresolved emotions rattled me in the early days postpartum.
I had planned a homebirth and then made a pivot in my plans when I went past 42 weeks. I experienced a challenging posterior labour where I demanded an epidural and then gratefully accepted a vacuum and episiotomy after 2.5 hours of pushing (she came out deflexed OP - iykyk). I have no regrets about the decisions I made, as best as I could at the time, but I am sad that my mental state at the time resulted in me making those choices. And then followed a very painful 2 year breastfeeding journey.
Postpartum rebuilt me. Stronger, softer, intuitive, more resilient, more accepting, and an established trust in my body’s abilities.
This journey has felt vastly different. More trust, less attempt to control and decisions made with reverence for my values, not from fear.
My son was again conceived by IVF, I again chose to plan for a homebirth. My pregnancy was uncomplicated. I laboured at 41+6 and birthed at home in water after a 3.5 hour labour. He emerged en caul, a little stunned, but perfect at 4.08kg. I was surrounded by strong women who’s presence i am so grateful for. Unfortunately we had a trip to ED for breathing support 10 hours later which resulted in a 4 day hospital stay. I am navigating the feelings that have resulted from this separation.
My second birth was the culmination of years of growth and healing after my first birth.