Cloudy to Clarity

01/09/2026

Tuesday not Friday!!!!
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30/08/2026

27/08/2026

🌤️💛Genuinely one of the biggest things that kept me stuck on the alcohol merry go round was my 50th Birthday celebrations!! 😰 I had always wanted to go to the Maldives and the thought of traveling posh class and not partaking in the free champagne was literally stuck in a loop in my mind!!! 🥺 Yup I’ve said it out loud, I was stuck in a destructive cycle with alcohol that was taking so much from my life because I wanted to drink champagne on a flight to the Maldives…
✈️Good news I honed my brave, I chose my hard and I put that champagne glass down and boarded that flight proud and fully present. Bonus, I got off the flight having had restorative sleep and no regrets.
🧘🏻‍♀️🧖‍♀️ We fully nurtured ourselves on this trip of a lifetime, giving ourselves permission to go EXTRA we had daily spa treatments (yup every single day!) we had daily yoga sessions and ate the incredible fresh food. This felt so indulgent but if I think what we would have spent on alcohol and not to mention the cost on my mental and physical health going forward! It was the perfect investment!!! 💛This trip allowed me to really build self trust in who I am alcohol free and I think back to it often, extra bonus I remember every single second!!!! 🌤️💛 🌤️💛 free

25/08/2026

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25/08/2026

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23/08/2026

It’s not you, you are not broken, you’re not alone, you were never the problem

22/08/2026

🌤️💛Happy Saturday - this weeks been A LOT and when I was drinking alcohol I would have handled it very very differently.

😫 It would have felt personal, unmanageable, unfair, too much. My inner voice would have been occupying all of my headspace and full volume on repeat. I would have snapped at my loved ones and made poor food choices. I would have pushed my body too far in my workouts to compensate, my sleep would have been interrupted and I would have sat here now sad, unmotivated and tired 😪
🌤️💛 Instead because I am alcohol free I have handled it with clarity, perspective and real honesty. But notably and most significantly with self compassion and self respect. 🙌🏽 That inner critic, the sh*tty committee as the wonderful Julia Samuel coined it! have been evicted.

🌤️💛I’ve paused and asked myself what I need to be able to cope and handle the situations. I’ve spoken with authenticity and kindness to my loved ones and myself.

🌤️💛It’s a game changer. (Literally life changing). It means that here I am sat in my garden on Saturday morning with my 3rd coffee (why the heck not!) and am not depleted or stressed I have energy to deal with the fall out of this week and also feel proud. This is major. Take care of yourselves and know that if you are drinking more than you want to you don’t have to white knuckle it alone get it 🌤️💛

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18/08/2026

🌤️💛A massive “why” for my putting the glass filled with alcohol down was my relationships.

🌤️💛Every single relationship I had was in some way being weakened. I wasn’t showing up as I truly want to. I potentially would say or do something embarrassing. I could never be sure as I couldn’t always remember!!

🌤️💛I potentially couldn’t remember the lovely parts of a chat or not use important and impactful active listening skills instead jumping in and therefore stunting the conversation.
I pride myself on being an active listener who doesn’t bring “my stuff” in.

🌤️💛My daughters are a massive part of my story as I take my role as Mum incredibly seriously. I want them to know and feel safe, supported, connected and loved unconditionally. When I was drinking I started to notice my anxiety levels growing as the girls were getting older and were therefore around my drinking more in the evenings. I didn’t like my self doubt growing around my behaviour.

🌤️💛Was I loud, embarrassing, sloppy? I cannot describe the relief, pride and self respect I have now knowing I am consistent, available, present, reliable.
The strength of our relationship is undoubtedly down to my sobriety.

🌤️💛we’ve had a whole lot go on these last years.

🌤️💛 I know in my heart that being alcohol free has enabled and solidified a strength that is unbreakable for us 🤜🏽🤛🏽
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17/08/2026