31/05/2026
You may have noticed I’ve been a little quieter on here recently.
Not because I’ve been retreating from life, but because I’ve been travelling inwards.
The yoga sutras have a name for this -'pratyahara' — often translated as the withdrawal of the senses. Not an escape from the world, but a conscious turning of attention away from the noise and distractions of the external world and back towards the wisdom that lives within. Like a tortoise drawing its limbs into its shell, there are seasons when we are called to gather our energy, simplify, listen deeply, and tend to what matters most.
Tomorrow feels like a portal into a new chapter of my life. I have my final CT scan and the results may shape how the next chapter of my life unfolds, and of course there are moments when fear and uncertainty creep in around the "what ifs." Miracle cure, life changing surgery or anything in between. But strangely, this moment feels less like an ending and more like the beginning of a new phase of my spiritual journey.
Again the yoga sutras have name for this (this is why I LOVE yoga!) They call it Ishvara Pranidhana — surrender to something greater than ourselves. Not giving up, but letting go of the illusion that we can control every outcome. Trusting in the wisdom of life, of the body, and of the unfolding path before us.
My relationship with surrender has changed profoundly over this past year.
What began as a white-knuckle ride has gradually softened into something gentler. Less resisting. Less forcing. More trusting. More allowing. More faith that whatever comes next, I will meet it.
A beautiful weekend spent surrounded by dear friends, sharing love, wisdom, laughter, connection and simply being together in the most beautiful setting, felt like the perfect way to mark this threshold. A reminder that even amidst uncertainty, life continues to offer moments of extraordinary grace.
And perhaps that is what surrender really looks like.
Not knowing what comes next, but opening your heart to it anyway.
Endless gratitude to the beautiful people in my life...you know who you are! 💗 and to my darling husband.. soul mate and love of my life.