29/06/2026
Exactly 2 months ago my device (ICD) went off and I received 9 shocks back to back. Which is call an electrical storm, my heart was in a critical state and the device was reading that I was unresponsive, and sadly every time I got shocked and I got back up it knocked me right back down to the ground.
As soon I reach to the ER in St. Maarten and explained what was happening I received another shock that send me face down on the ground. When I came to I was already on the bed with patches from the defibrillator attach to me. Since I reach back in NL I have been in and out of the ER about 4/5 times. I been on my new medications and the previous ones was adjusted and it has been a battle with how my blood flows through my body. My magnesium & potassium level been dropping a lot.
I don’t eat no type of veggies or fruits and before the shocks all my blood count was always good. So its crazy to me that those things are causing this issue now. Neither the less, my doctors knows this and said it’s not an issue we have pills for that, so yes more pills for me to take. I told her I can try eat oranges LOL, because I read all the things you can eat at home to help with those levels. she said stop it, we all know better just take these pills, and so far, I haven’t been back in the ER since.
Today June 29th, 2026 I had my first appointment with my physiatrist and it was so emotional and lord knows am not an emotional person so you all know my body went straight in panic mode and my anxiety was starting to become overwhelming.
After explaining what I was feeling and how it affects my day to day routine and my sleep he told me I have PTSD - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which we all knew.
So, moving forward he wants to start EMDR with me, Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing. It is a form of psychotherapy designed to treat post-traumatic stress disorder.
After reading up and all the information I have right now s**t only about to get way worst before it gets better.
He also found my story intriguing and ask me to join a study/research so he can help me, help people that may go through what I am going through. Feb 2023 I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure by dilated cardiomyopathy with severely LV function. I had a 4cm blood cloth covering the left side of my heart and water in my lungs. September 29th, (My Bday) 2024 My doctors in St. Maarten fight with SVB to ship me out to the Netherlands. I closed down my business, stopped everything that was going on around me, left my partner, my kids and my family and friends behind because I choose ME. My health was more important than anything else and as a mother I need to be there to see my kids grow up.
Above it all my faith haven’t shifted and this too shall past🙏🏽
