16/09/2026
I don't think I've ever shared this before.
When I was at school, I was voted Most Valued Seventh Former by my peers.
I remember having to get up and say thank you and being SO embarrassed.
I could barely do it.
It wasn't that I wasn't grateful. I was.
I just didn't think I deserved it.
Which is actually quite sad when I think about it now.
Other people could see something in me that I couldn't see in myself.
I've thought about that moment a lot over the years.
I wish I could go back and tell that girl to stand up, say thank you and let herself be proud.
But I didn't have that confidence then.
It's taken me a long time to find my voice.
Looking back, I can see how uncomfortable I was being seen.
I could happily celebrate other people. But when it came to receiving something myself? Completely different story.
And I wonder how many of us have spent years doing some version of that.
Playing things down.
Second guessing ourselves.
Saying yes when we really want to say no.
Worrying too much about what other people might think.
I still don't have all of this figured out.
But the older I get, the less interested I am in making myself smaller.
I want to know what matters to me.
I want to be able to say what I need.
And I want to set boundaries without feeling guilty about them.
I think this is part of why my work has become about more than health.
Because feeling well isn't only about having more energy or sleeping better.
It's having the headspace and capacity to ask yourself:
What do I want?
What do I need?
What matters to me now?
Maybe part of feeling like yourself again is finding your voice along the way.
I'm still finding mine.