06/23/2026
i remember our first big beach vacation as parents — I was smacked hard with this new, selflessness responsibility that I was not prepared for.
in the evening, I so badly wanted to take a sunset beach walk with my husband. of course the night that we had planned to do so, our first born (around 2 at the time) refused to go to bed easily. I spent the whole evening in the condo nursing, rocking, crying, & silently begging her to just go to sleep. i was frustrated & envious of my other family members vacationing with us who seemed to be enjoying their “freedom”.
now reliving that moment, it makes me sad I had those feelings — towards my daughter, towards myself, & towards my family.
as a “seasoned” mother of now three with many trips under our belt, i have a change of expectations when planning vacations.
it’s less about my wants & more about chasing little feet & seeing the world through the eyes of one’s you love more than yourself. this trip included lots of jumping over the waves, searching for the best seashells, building sandcastles & mermaid tails, chasing seagulls, catching lizards, being nap trapped, throwing sinky toys, & an endless amount of “mommy watch this” — as well as a trip to the ER on the first night because someone wanted to play floor is lava & ended with hitting their face on a stone windowsill 😅
motherhood has a way of changing everything. vacation is about creating memories for your children, soaking in their wonder, & creating more intentional moments. I have stopped expecting “rest” & instead prioritized memories, experiences, & togetherness.
some days it felt exhausting (most days 🥲). some days I still missed the freedom of only having to think about myself, my wants, my to-do wishes. but never in a million years would I change it.
its not a break from motherhood, its leaning into it — & I’m here to fully embrace that 🤍
p.s. shoutout to my incredible husband who’s by my side through it all. also to my family who vacationed with us, offered us a date night, some alone time, & lent hands along the way 🙌🏼 it takes a village!!