06/02/2026
I refuse to keep my fake face on. I’m tired of the voice in my head that keeps saying to keep it all inside.
I get the theory. therapists aren’t supposed to share active wounds publicly. we process quietly, out of the eye of strangers and clients and the internet. and intellectually, I understand it.
but following that rule right now would mean listening to the same voice I spent years learning to talk back to. the one that says stay small. don’t feel this out loud. handle it privately and efficiently so no one has to see.
I’m not doing that today.
my nephew was 22 years old and I am half human right now. that’s the truth. and 2 things can be true at once: I can feel empty AND take care of myself. I can be in the middle of my own grief AND show up for my clients. I can want to check out completely AND choose to stay grounded. none of that is a contradiction. it’s just... being a person.
what I’m not going to do is pretend this isn’t happening, or wait until it’s a neat scar before I’m allowed to say it out loud.
so if you’re guarded AF, and you’re reading this thinking “I could never”... I want you to hear this: you’re allowed to let people love you through the hard moments. you don’t have to have it handled before you reach out. you don’t have to protect everyone from your pain before you’re allowed to feel it.
I know it’s not easy. it’s not easy for me right now either. but you deserve someone to be there for you the way you’re always there for everyone else. I believe that for you as much as I believe it for me.
thank you for being here. it means more than you know. 🫶
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