07/30/2023
I’ve been a mother for 7 years, a wife for 8.75 and it’s two roles I’ve embodied fully and gratefully.
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They have also put a strain on my breathing some days. Who am I existing outside of their needs from me? Who am I individually? How can I rediscovery who I am wholly as I am free from my relationship to my family?
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I told Nic last week I don’t want to be a wife anymore. Instead I’m trading the definition for PARTNER, girlfriend and baby mama.
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The female line I come from has experienced wife as a whole identity and for me, I discovered it felt like a collar around my neck I had just upgraded to a extending leash.
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BE CLEAR- My partner ⚡️never⚡️ made me feel that way, the institution is what’s choked at me. We aren’t divorcing, there is immense privilege to the civil contract and the Q***r I am is taking advantage of what I have access to. The constructs in my psyche however, I am eradicating.
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For me and all those who came before me. My journey aligned to the most joy, fun and freedom possible for me and ALL MY RELATIONS; blood, species and all otherwise.
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THANK YOU to my Partner Nic, who is and has always been a full equal parent in all ways. I leave for days without ever needing to check on anything because they are fully cared for in all ways and he can handle many things better than I do. I’m so happy you’re enjoying boys weekend. I love you and choose you to the very end.
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That in itself is major generational healing; my Father was incapable of caring for his children on his own for the entirety of our lives.