07/08/2023
For years, I never let anyone actually be a part of my healing journey. I let people observe, but never support. I was too afraid of being a burden. I was too afraid of shattering someone the way I had been. About five months ago, someone asked to be a part of my journey and be allowed to show me what a healthy relationship is like. I was definitely skeptical at first. I didn’t hesitate to warn them that I felt like they were wasting their time. I warned they that I was afraid of hurting them. They kept letting me know they weren’t scared and that they were there. At first, I only let them show up by being there when I needed a hug. They still showed up. In any way that I let them, they showed up. They haven’t hesitated to communicate that they care. They show grace in every capacity they can with my healing journey, even when I ask for the millionth time “Are we ok?”. Something that they say that will forever ring clear in my mind is “You deserve to be cared about.” I have seen the most growth when I have known that I am cared about and that I am not alone. You aren’t meant to heal alone. You deserve to be cared about. ♥️