Rally For Rowan

10/27/2026

When you are in the thick of a traumatic situation, especially one that stretches months. It's as if your brain shuts off your ability to see how terrible it all is.
You have to keep your wits about you to make it through.

It's been over two months, two months of trying to recover from something so horrific. The more time passes, the more that I realize just how horrible so much of it was. How sick the treatments made him, how hard his little body fought. I will forever have the images of blood, vomit, and pain etched into my mind.
What the cancer did to him as death crept near. It was cruel.

He was so strong. He deserved better. Even more than the bad times, I remember the good. I cry harder at the good memories, because we can't make anymore with him.

Him waking me up with kisses all over my face. They way he smiled when I would sing rock a bye baby, and laugh when I pretended to almost drop him. The way he shook his head side to side when we danced in the kitchen. His arms around my neck while I spun him around the room. Him climbing his father like a jungle gym, standing on his head. Bubbles, spongebob, cuddles, and karate chops.

I find myself bargaining with the empty space that surrounds me. If I apologize enough, if I cry, if I beg maybe somehow I'll wake up from this living nightmare.

The only bit of peace I get is when I spend time with my boys. Reading stories, going on adventures, playing video games, watching them play baseball in the yard with their dad.

We are learning to be a family again, trying to be there for each other. I feel like the blind leading the blind. I have no idea what I am doing, how I am even holding it together. I am, and I'm trying as best I can to help the boys and their father.

As Halloween comes up, I would ask that you all eat a sweet treat in memory of Rowan. He loved chocolate, cookies, suckers, really anything sweet he could get his hands on.

Please stay safe while you are out and about! We are still so grateful to all of you who continue to pray for our family. There will always be an empty space in our lives, but knowing Rowan touched and was loved by so many. Makes the pain a little easier to carry.

10/01/2026

Someday I want to start a handmade crafts store in honor of Rowan.
It will be called Rowan's Wonders, and a percentage of every sale will be donated to families who are fighting their own battles with cancer.

I will use Rowan's page to tell his story, help others find support and hopefully bring them some comfort. I think this is a good way to honor him and keep his memory alive.

Right now we are focused on rebuilding our lives, learning to be a family all over again now that such a huge part is missing. We hurt so much because we loved him so much. We have all this love that is meant for him and he is not here for us to give it to.

It makes me so happy to think that someday I will use that love to help others.

We love you all and are grateful for every one of you who continues to care and pray for our family! I could thank you all a billion times and it wouldn't be enough.

09/30/2026

We would not have been able to keep our home, our bills paid, without all of the help that we recieved from our community! Not just the financial support but the emotional, and prayers that we still recieve from so many who loved our son. I am so proud and honored. Someday we will do something great in memory of our Rowan to help others. Thank you all so much!

Mother of Rowan Beasley wants to thank community after his death ⬇️ Details in comments.

09/30/2026

09/29/2026

Please if you can find it in your hearts to like, share, and if possible donate to this family. Kolby is fighting a battle no child should ever have to face!
We want the family to know that they are on our minds, in our hearts, and we will do whatever we can to help support them during this difficult time!

Keep them in your prayers!

Just after celebrating his first birthday, Kolby was diagnosed with neuroblastoma,… Hanna Decker needs your support for Kolby's Fight Against Childhood Cancer

09/28/2026

Little by little, day by day, we are trying. Surviving.
Somedays I get through it without breaking down in tears. Somedays I can get up and go out, had a date night for the first time in a long time.
Everything feels wrong, there is always a part missing.
A lot of the days, I spend trying to survive to the next moment. With an ache in my heart, suffocating from a pain that no medication could ease.
I havent been to the cemetery in a while. Not since before his birthday, I feel so terribly guilty. Im scared, every visit, I feel time passing. See the changes as the dirt settles in over him. It breaks me, like glass shattered into the finest shards. I cannot be put back together.
I have to learn to live like this and its terrible.
We spend a lot of time together as a family, playing outside, having movie nights, going to the playground. Trying so hard to enjoy ourselves, even though there is a hole that nothing can ever fill.

09/28/2026

09/15/2026

Rowans Birthday is in two days, I don't know what we will do. A month ago I had hoped he would not make it to his 5th birthday. Whenever it was mentioned I would cringe at the tought of him still being here.

Please dont misunderstand, I loved my son more than anything. He was suffering, and keeping him the way he was felt cruel.

When you are watching your child fade away for weeks on end, paralyzed, skin and bones, it is horrific. Everyday was like torture seeing him that way. He was suffering and there was nothing I could do except keep him comfortable.

Still I could hold him, I could kiss him, feel the warmth of his body. I could hear his voice in his cries, the hurt, the pain he must have been in. I miss him so much.

He is free from all the pain now, free from being trapped in his body. He is amongst the stars, in every cloud that passes by, he is in the sunset, and the moon lighting up the sky at night.
A piece of my heart and soul is lost amongst the galaxies, somewhere we can only dream of.

I ask you all to please remember Rowan on Sep, 17th. Light a candle, blow bubbles, or watch an episode of spongebob. We would love to for you all to share with us how you honored our big boy, on his 5th birthday.

We love you so much Rowan.
I am so sorry this all turned out the way it did.

This video is from his 3rd Birthday, if only we knew what was coming two months later.

Hold your babies close, cherish them, enjoy every moment.

09/13/2026

Cleaning the bedroom today, I was gathering up all of Rowans keepsakes to put in his memory cabinet.
His little shoes, with his socks still tucked away in them.
I am crying, I just started and I need to take a break.
I know it takes time, I know I dont need to rush. These are important items to us, so I want to put them up safe. Im going to power through it but the last time he wore these, when he could still run around and play.

My sweet baby, 4 days until his birthday. I cant think, all I do is hurt. My heart is broken, I just want to hold my baby again.