04/18/2017
2 years ago my life changed dramatically. 2 years ago my best friend, husband, father of my son, partner in crime, and so much more, left us. This year has been different than the last. A lot of things continue to change, good and bad. I know things seem to not get better as the days go on, single parenting definitely isn't getting easier, making life decisions alone isn't, just day to day struggles. I know I've had a few personal struggles this year that I didn't expect or plan for, I know maybe at times Ronnie might not have been proud. I'd give anything for his pep talks in those moments. But I try to do this life the best I know how. I pray and seek The Lord for guidance and patience a lot. I've never claimed to be perfect, better than anyone or Holier than anyone. I know In the end all I need to please is my Heavenly Father and I hope Ronnie as well. The 2nd year feels like such a long time but not all at the same time. The holidays and milestones feel the same but I don't count the days like I did last year. I know Jordan had changed a lot in the 2nd year, some good and some more difficult. But we're just trying to continue to grow and adjust together the best we know how. I know things will get easier but it still don't make the pain or the emptiness go away! Even though I'm attempting to move forward in my life, never changes my past and there will always be this part of me that never goes away. The memories will always be apart of my life! There's still days I can't believe he's gone but I can rest assured he's enjoyed his time in heaven! 💔💔💔😢😢
