05/15/2026
What would you whisper in your 16 year old ear?
I recently had some old film developed that had pictures of me at 16-17. My darling husband now has this on his dresser.
Of course, my youth was the first thing to jump out at me, but there was something bigger I felt. Sadness. A deep sadness that this sweet gal didn't realize her worth for many decades after this photo was taken.
Truth is, I'm still realizing my worth.
In 2019 I began this painting titled ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ ๐๐ฆ and it was during this process that I finally began to feel my worth. AT 50. Ugh. Two messages were coming through during that time loud and clear:
I am GOOD and WORTHY of good things just because I'm me AND I'm made for the Garden.
I lived an entire life riddled with constant guilt and shame. Unfortunately, many people experience this in religious culture. It's not the healthy guilt we should feel when we've done something we are ashamed of; instead, it's pervasive guilt that doesn't match the moment. Mine started to come to an end when my therapist asked me bluntly one session, "What's with all this guilt and shame?" I'd never even considered it. It had just become who I was.
Forty years have passed since this picture was taken. I've experienced so much life, but man do I wish I would have valued myself more as a young woman. I wish I would have paid more attention to how I felt and tended to myself with more care than judgement. I also wish that I would have never used alcohol to cope. Oh, what a mistake that always was and is still.
I wish I could wrap my arms around this young woman and whisper in her ear: YOU ARE GOOD.
๐ง What would you whisper in your 16 year old ear?