10/05/2026
This little one—me—carried within her the seed of a mother.
Full article: https://heatheryalin.substack.com/p/baptized-in-love
Sparked from Divine Mother, born of her earthly mother—this little one was born from an egg produced when her mother was but a 4-month fetus within her grandmother’s womb.
As a child, I knew there would be three, or I spoke three children into existence.
Motherhood, for me, is one of the truest, rawest, most devoted things I have ever done. It was part of what I came here to do.
Motherhood has continually fine tuned my ability to—not only hear/sense my next step but more importantly—listen and follow through (…eventually. Yes, I procrastinate too).
Life is a series of lessons on compromise. What that really means is to prioritize.
We often talk of our lives as a series of sacrifices, like martyrs.
But we get to choose. Choose wisely.
You can’t choose wisely on the level of mind only. The intellect must be corrected and attuned, and the innermost compass of the heart heard and adhered.
I can’t think of motherhood without blessing my own mother.
In absence and longing, she has been one of my greatest teachers. I was so tied up in wanting what I didn’t have that I was unable to appreciate, sense, or know her.
I was 14 when she left her body at 42—after her being sick for some downright formative years.
For much of that time, I was disallowed being in her presence—the only place I really wanted to be. In a way, she needed to channel all her love and grief into herself.
Looking outward at her children—the void she was leaving, the responsibility she could not assume and the guilt for not assuming it—caused too much heartbreak in the depths of an already breaking heart.
Plus I had this nervous system habit of being so whelmed with happiness to be around her when she was feeling somewhat well that, when I was taken away, I’d go into fits of puking. (Aw, my little love.) There’s a poetic sense here since her barf bowl was such a central pivot in our lives.
Choice. Dear one, you get to be here.
You get to know the ache and the joy, the dark and the light, the blood and the tears of what it feels like to be baptized in Love.