06/06/2024
Thinking of the long beautiful twisted journey it took me to get to where I am. I’ve smiled more in the last year than my whole life, namely motherhood has changed me. Plain and simple, it has.
I’m carried away in some beautiful madness at the same time as being lifted up. So much being true within this space. I am a raw nerve of emotions and hold so much gratitude for every second of this life.
Turning 45 feels big this year and much is putting life into a deep sigh of gratitude.
My father only lived to 46, and one of my dearest friends of my life only a few years younger than that. Both these souls have been on my mind lately. How they lived as had a huge impact on me as a person and how I exist here.
I’m a talk to spirit flickering lights kind of person, I don’t much care or deal these days with BS. You either like me or you walk on by, I dance as much as my soul calls which is daily. I get worked up, and regulated easily because I’ve worked on it and have the knowledge to do so. I have the tools to heal myself and help others and I do as often as spirit allows.
I’m more rooted these days, my hot dates consist of playdates for my little man.
I release all the pain and suffering it took to feel this settled in to all the parts of myself. Obviously there are spaces I still am learning in, and I welcome those lessons knowing I’ll gain more from what comes up.
Aging is such a sacred gift.
Knowing all that we get to carry in us to lead and own ourselves. I feel more confident than ever and that’s saying a lot cause I’ve walked “tits up”most of my life. The tough girl has turned into a softer women, but yes darlings I still have my edge, I just don’t point the blade outwards .. that’s a part of me, a gift I got when I was younger, having to be a badass to protect myself from things I couldn’t control, made peace with that and moved on. I’m confident in me.
My wish is for a lot more good to keep rising to the surface, for those in pain, to have the ability to turn that pain into some healing and turn around and help others going through something. For my health to continue and my healthy and loving lifestyle to inspire others. HBD
