06/10/2026
You know what’s funny? 🤔
The crossover between being neurodivergent and having a history of religious trauma. ✨
Today I found myself sitting in my own office…with brightly colored hair 🌈, a nose ring 💍, and my shoulders showing - and suddenly feeling like I was going to get in trouble. 😳
Not because anyone said anything.
Not because I was actually doing anything wrong.
But because there was a time in my life when these were things I wasn’t allowed to do.
Back then, I learned that my body, appearance, and choices could become someone else’s concern. That there were rules (spoken and unspoken) about what was “appropriate,” what caused men to “stumble,” and what a good woman should look like.
And even now, years later, the rejection sensitivity can still sneak up on me. 🫠
The funny thing is that I’m a grown woman. In a business I own. Making my own rules. 💁♀️✨
Yet sometimes my nervous system doesn’t realize we’ve already left the room. 🧠💛
Deconstruction isn’t a one-time event.
Reconstruction isn’t either. 🏗️
Sometimes healing looks like noticing the old fear when it appears, thanking it for trying to protect you, and continuing to wear the nose ring anyway. 💜
What surprises me most isn’t that these moments still happen.
It’s how long they’ll stay quiet before popping up and reminding me they’re still there. 👀
Anyone else ever get blindsided by a belief, fear, or rule you thought you’d already worked through??
