14/02/2020
perspective:
[noun] a particular attitude towards something;
first off wow when you put things side by side it almost brings me to tears to see the person I once was.
second off, this is a 3 year difference...
I’ve been really hard on myself lately about where my body is at because it isn’t where I expected it to be.
however I had to be honest with myself if I was giving 100% to get me where I wanted to go and the answer was no.
but what I failed to see was my entire journey thus far and how far I have came since the beginning. we are our own worst critics, when we should be our biggest cheerleaders.
this was not easy, nor is it even easy now and I genuinely don’t think it ever should get easy. it’s hard work.
physically.
mentally.
it’s uncomfortable.
it hasn’t been a straight consistent path either..
it’s been an absolute roller coaster filled with incredible highs and really treacherous , grimy lows.
I’ve realized I preach all the time to be kind to yourself and just trust the process and enjoy it yet I was not doing those things to myself.
I’ve had a thousand day ones.
I’ve had a thousand ‘I’ll start mondays’
I have failed even more than that.
we get so caught up in the expectations that we make for ourselves that we don’t see the progress, the little wins, the accomplishments we have done.
in November I decided I needed a new goal, my fitness fell off once again and I needed something to ignite my love again, something to challenge me.
so I decided to do my first bikini competition.
I’m 10 weeks out, I have a lot of work to do still, but I know what I’m capable of and I’m done selling myself short.
I’m done being so hard on myself.
I have a lot to still accomplish but that doesn’t discredit what I have already accomplished.
to the girl in both photos,
I am so proud of you,
I am sorry for being so hard on you,
see the work you’ve done and congratulate yourself on how far you have came.
you’re capable of so much more than you allow yourself to see.
keep growing and keep grinding to becoming the best version of yourself.
you’ll get there I promise.
sometimes you just need a little perspective.
ps.dont forget to smile 💛