26/03/2026
Labour after loss 🤍
[ Part 1 ]
The weeks leading up to labour and birth with Sofia Leilani, it never once crossed my mind that i would face such a challenge when in labour with her. I didnt think the pain and heartache would resurface after so much healing.
We were pregnant from October 2024 to Jan 21st 2025 which tragically resulted in a loss. I didn't prepare mentally, nor did I think I should have prepared mentally for such thoughts that hit me that night.
I was in prodromal labour on and off for about a week and had small tightenings for weeks leading up to birth — a lot of false alarms. So when I was in labour, I was in denial, not believing I was actually about to meet my baby.
Still, in the early hours of labour, I had no thoughts of my pregnancy before Sofia. Throughout the early hours of the morning, I was riding the waves, still in denial laughing, chatting, tidying the lounge, discussing random topics with my birth team, quoting lyrics from my birth playlist. I did not take notice of how dilated I was, how far I had progressed still in denial, my baby was on the way.
I was in the birth pool and the surges ramped up, my thoughts flooded in like a tidal wave. I asked my doula, with tears rolling down uncontrollably, “Is it normal to think about my other baby and not the baby I am about to birth? Was it normal to grieve whilst in the last stages of labour?” why am i so emotional about my last pregnancy right now, in this moment? "
"Yes, absolutely, its ok. ," my doula whispered quietly to me 🤍
To be continued.....
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