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14/07/2026

All of my uploaded stories are copyrighted and uploaded to a registered portal for safe keeping. I am thinking of putting them all into an ebook to share. I take a lot of different directions, depending on the day I have had. Sharing some of my writing. I write to de-stress. As a mental health clinician and lifestyle medicine practitioner, I find it helps me to unwind. It's the thing I do, with my elephant Harold and chicken Huxley and the old Arnotts biscuit tin on my desk.

I am going to post some of my thoughts, poems and musings now and then. I am open to criticism. I have been writing since I was a child and have uploaded some from when I was in grade 6 and 7 which I will share at a later date

Enjoy

The Waiting Room System
The Therapists Room

There is a system that fascinates me.

It is not listed on any government website.

It has no logo.

No annual report.

But it is everywhere.

It is the system that teaches human beings to wait until they are broken enough.

I work in mental health. Which means I sit inside the machinery and watch it hum.

The system promises order. It promises assessment, referral pathways, funding streams, Medicare rebates, structured sessions, evidence-based modalities, stepped-care models, treatment plans, progress reviews, and discharge summaries. It promises predictability.

It does not promise relief.

The waiting room is where the system does its quiet work.

Not the physical one with the outdated magazines and laminated posters about breathing exercises. I mean the invisible one.

The Waiting Room System works like this-

You begin to feel unwell.

Not dramatically. Just… friction.

You are tired in a way sleep does not fix.

You snap at your partner.

You scroll too long.

You cry in the car and then compose yourself before walking inside.

The system says - Not yet.

You continue functioning. You work. You parent. You perform. You manage. You attend meetings about wellness while privately Googling “why do I feel flat.”

The system says - Still not enough.

Eventually something gives. A panic attack in Woolworths. A collapse at work. A doctor’s certificate. A whisper: “I can’t keep doing this.”

Now you qualify.

The system loves qualification.

It requires symptoms measurable enough to code.

Distress significant enough to bill.

Dysfunction visible enough to document.

Before that point? You were just coping poorly.

I often sit across from people who have been in the Waiting Room for years.

They apologise when they cry.

They minimise their own stories.

They say, “Other people have it worse.”

That sentence should be embroidered on the official flag of the Waiting Room System.

The system distributes power in subtle ways.

It rewards endurance.

It praises resilience.

It quietly punishes early vulnerability.

If you speak too soon, you are dramatic.

If you wait too long, you are complex.

Either way, paperwork will be required.

The system organises behaviour beautifully. It trains people to override their nervous systems. To reinterpret burnout as productivity. To call hypervigilance “being responsible.” To label trauma responses as personality flaws.

It is elegant in its misalignment.

In theory, the system exists to prevent crisis. In practice, it often requires one.

There are funding streams for “severe and persistent.”

Fewer for “I can feel myself unravelling.”

There are pathways for acute intervention.

Fewer for slow erosion.

And yet slow erosion is how most people break.

I have watched a person sit in front of me and describe coercive control with the tone of someone narrating a minor inconvenience. As if having your reality dismantled slowly is simply poor communication.

The Waiting Room System whispers - It wasn’t that bad. You survived.

Survival is a tricky metric.

The system loves survival.

It is less interested in thriving.

There is another layer to this machinery — the Professional Layer. I exist inside it.

We attend professional development sessions about burnout while checking our phones between clients. We fill out risk assessments that require numerical scales for despair. We measure human suffering in tick boxes.

On a form, suicidality becomes:

0 – Not present

1 – Passive thoughts

2 – Active thoughts

3 – Plan and intent

There is no box for - “I am exhausted in my bones but still showing up because I don’t know what else to do.”

So we approximate.

We build frameworks. We create models. We design programs. We talk about nervous system regulation and trauma-informed practice and early intervention.

Meanwhile, the Waiting Room hums.

It shapes who gets help.

It shapes when they get help.

It shapes how much they believe they deserve help.

The most obedient participants are high-functioning. They attend therapy on time. They complete worksheets. They preface every vulnerability with “I know this sounds silly.”

They are excellent at staying just functional enough to disqualify themselves from urgency.

I once had a client say to me, “I don’t think it was abuse. He didn’t hit me.”

That sentence is also embroidered on the flag.

The system promises predictability, but the failure is experienced as friction. Subtle misalignment. The feeling that something is off but you cannot justify stopping the conveyor belt.

You wake up tired.

You keep going.

You feel unseen.

You keep going.

You lose joy.

You keep going.

Until one day, you cannot.

Then suddenly the system mobilises. Referrals. Assessments. Crisis lines. Safety plans. Medication reviews.

It is remarkably efficient once collapse occurs.

I am not anti-system. I benefit from it. My business exists within it. I fill out the forms. I write the reports. I sign the treatment plans.

But I cannot ignore the quiet absurdity of a structure that requires deterioration before legitimising distress.

There is something culturally elegant about telling people to “reach out early” while designing access thresholds that require proof of unravelling.

We have created a society where the most socially rewarded nervous system is a dysregulated one that performs productivity well.

You can be anxious — as long as you are high-achieving.

You can be traumatised — as long as you are still polite.

You can be exhausted — as long as you keep showing up.

The Waiting Room System does not collapse dramatically. It erodes quietly. It teaches people to mistrust their early warning signs. It trains them to wait for external validation before honouring internal distress.

And so they sit.

Not always in a physical waiting room. Often in marriages. In workplaces. In community roles. In identities they have outgrown.

Waiting to be “bad enough.”

Waiting to qualify.

Waiting to be believed.

The friction is subtle. The collapse is not.

If the system were a building, it would not fall in one dramatic crash. It would sag slowly, beam by beam, while everyone inside insists it is structurally sound because technically, it is still standing.

I sit with people who have learned to call standing “success.”

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if we redesigned qualifications around discomfort instead of disaster. If we treated early misalignment as worthy of attention.

But the challenge does not ask for solutions.

Only attention.

So here is my attention -

There exists a system that quietly trains human beings to endure more than they should before asking for help.

It promises order.

It delivers endurance.

And it keeps the waiting room very tidy.

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07/05/2026

My thoughts this week.

*When Therapy Became an Identity: How We Taught a Generation to Name Their Pain but Not Always Survive It*

I have been thinking about this a lot lately.
This is not a post saying mental health issues are not real. They are real. Trauma is real. ADHD is real. Autism is real. Anxiety, depression, grief, burnout and emotional dysregulation are real.
But I do think we need to talk about what happens when therapy language becomes someone’s whole identity.
There is a difference between understanding yourself and being organised entirely around your wounds.
There is a difference between saying, “This explains why I struggle,” and saying, “This means I am not responsible.”
A diagnosis should explain.
It should not excuse everything.
Therapy should build capacity.
It should not become someone’s whole personality.
Support should increase independence where possible.
It should not train helplessness.
Validation should soothe shame.
It should not remove responsibility.
Many younger people today have incredible emotional language. They can name their triggers, attachment style, nervous system state, diagnoses and therapy modality. That can be powerful. Language can reduce shame. It can help people understand themselves. It can open the door to healing.
But language alone is not healing.
Being able to name your pain is not the same as being able to live with it, regulate it, take responsibility for it, repair harm, tolerate discomfort, or build a life beyond it.
Somewhere along the way, I wonder whether we gave some young people emotional language before we gave them enough life skills. We taught them to recognise discomfort, but not always to tolerate it. We taught them to name trauma, but not always to build capacity after trauma. We taught them to understand their nervous system, but not always to take responsibility for their behaviour.
And I say this with compassion, not criticism.
Many of us from older generations were raised in the opposite extreme. We were told to toughen up, get over it, stop crying, stay quiet, hide family problems, hide disability, hide abuse, hide depression, and just keep going.
That caused enormous harm too.
So the answer is not to go backwards.
The answer is balance.
We need to believe people when they say they are struggling, while still helping them build responsibility.
We need to validate pain, while still encouraging growth.
We need to support neurodivergent people, while still helping them develop practical strategies for adult life.
We need to recognise trauma, while still helping people move towards agency, repair and choice.
Good therapy should make a person’s world bigger, not smaller.
Good support should help people become more capable, not more dependent.
Good mental health care should help people understand their wounds without becoming permanently organised around them.
Because there is a real difference between compassion and capture.
Compassion says, “I can see why you are struggling. Let’s help you build a life.”
Capture says, “You are your symptoms. Keep identifying with the wound. Keep needing the system.”
That is the part that worries me.
When distress becomes profitable, when services are funded by how many hours people attend, when therapy becomes endless without clear goals, review or movement, we need to ask careful questions.
Not cruel questions. Not dismissive questions. Ethical questions.
Are we helping people recover?
Are we building capacity?
Are we teaching responsibility alongside validation?
Are we supporting independence where possible?
Are we helping people become more themselves, or more attached to a label?
Mental health support matters deeply. But the goal should never be for someone to become fluent in the language of their suffering while remaining trapped inside it.
The goal is not just insight.
The goal is life.