16/06/2026
Today I did my final breathwork while moving down the South East grid, falling into the arms of my care team, literally. My traps already feel like I never went. The collective heaviness along with the EMF so dangerous now to light bodies. I spent most of the day burning from the inside. It will be a decade before this gets rectified, and only when it turns catastrophic.
By the time I arrived at my Osteo appointment I was fairly messy, different kind of messy than my time there in fifth. This is the rare opportunity I get to meet with practitioners who are weaving the frequency of the Fifth into their 4D client base. Today Michael came up with a theory, as we often swap notes of observation, while discussing the secrets of life. His theory today was that the size of property in Australia is what's led to the bubble of unconsciousness that swept up the Baby Boomers. Without having to struggle for finance, we rarely get pulled back into the 3D. This is where they failed to awaken because put bluntly life is just too good in Australia. Which is exactly why the Southern Hemisphere is holding the weight of Earth from their beaming Light down under. The Northern Hemisphere has had their awakening, what goes up must come down at some stage. This epic move into revelations, is due to the QLD light codes, which are far higher in frequency than down south.
With all that light going to people’s heads and not being able to snap into grounding their consciousness, I think he’s got a point. Compared to living in Indonesia, there's a lot of distance here between neighbours and I struggled with the drop in disconnect once leaving that beautiful Ascended frequency of Bali. If we don’t come down again into contact regularly with blended heaviness we don’t have as much of an anchor and we simply keep ascending into what should happen after death, while still attached to our meat suit. If we had the heaviness of neighbours living almost us in our back yard like the UK, we would not take so long to understand the frequency or even come close to 5D. This makes a lot of sense as to why the UK mentality is so depleted and dense, they never had the space to grow free and were always held grounded in poverty, which has now been taken global.
The more independent and carefree we become the less grounded we remain. The more detached we become from those around us, the faster we vibrate, moving through the Dimensional frequencies at a much faster rate than others. The kids who come in with this frequency are so used to going so fast they can no longer slow down. One day they crash and burn, just like I did after a year absorbing the ego of film, while trying to work full time, manage 2 children with their father then absent. It was a lot of weight to carry, designed to make me crash and rebuild to understand my childhood in Fifth.
After a brief deep dive back into Third these last few weeks, it’s not a nice place to be. It’s like time stands still and nothing flows like it does in 5D. It’s a stagnant energy, felt for the first time on Sunday, not feeling that hum of any vibration. Now I get it. I know what they feel once we leave and why they can always tell when we're about to pull away and quickly rectify breadcrumbs just in time to keep us. I do note that we are always stronger when combined but the damage remains so deep for both on the Twin Flame journey. It’s time to steady this sinking ship so I’m turning my focus back to me. A deep 2012 style healing, a return into mainstream, releasing what the last ten years at this level has done to me. The cost to my physical body, finance opportunities in the 4D, and what 3 years of non-stop breathwork, pulling up my attachments has done to the organs surrounding my Solar Plexus.
Spending time reflecting on the areas across the journey where I abandoned myself, my lack of sexual discipline, and from 16 my addiction to seducing good looking mature older men, later in their twenties. My final lesson, didn't respect me enough to reciprocate energy, or prioritise my time, while taking all the benefits. I lost my energetic body mass while chasing love instead of vibrating in it. That love and care that is blindly offered through unconditional love. It only happens once to those awake. I'd never held focus on a man longer than 6 months until the one who knew just how to do it. Well this dark empath caught on, never being a priority, and eventually gave back every lesson received.
By design, it destroyed me, vibrating me out of my love and joy for the fourth dimension. I have realised now that I was the runner. Determined to break my lineage, of living life together with someone who despises you. To not be that person who stays out of comfort and convenience but love, in places they’re no longer welcome. Things got complex when I realised we share the same breath body so we're always compensating each other.
The hell of 3D burns. That fiery place called hell is a metaphor. It’s the address for the unawakened minds, held there by the delusional tentacles of religion or the roots of materialism, sometimes both. In most cases for those who lacked gratitude, forcing us into such a necessary detachment. When the ego dies gratitude is born, and we’re currently moving through a global ego death of the collective, something we’ve never seen before. Many by default, which is even worse cause they don’t know or will never know how much work it took. This is the weight and heaviness we’re all feeling right now. Be kind to yourself, stay horizontal when needed, I did it for years and it all worked out. We are always supported on the path of Ascension, we just need to ask, and remain in the truth of who we are.
