24/05/2026
The transformation God has worked in my life in the last 6 years particularly in the last few has been epic.
I'm no longer the same person I used to be.
He brought awareness to my hypocritical "Christian" life, that was just a charade and truly had no substance or foundation. Did I think that at the time? NO. And if anyone would have challeneged me I would have likely replied with "you don't know my heart".
I was doing the things, attending workshops/courses/events, I was part of the prayer ministry team, I attending prophetic workshops, I was part of bible studies, I loved worship services (if they played the songs I liked).
However, alongside this I was living a feministic "I am woman, I don't need anyone's help" life. I was dabbling in "creating my own life" being self sufficient, striving for the next goal, dominating in my marriage, immersing myself in ungodly shows and music that continued to feed the story that women are strong and don't need anyone, can do and should do anything and everything, and should rightly put men in their place.
I was deeply challenged by Matthew 7v21-23
"Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’"
I realised this verse was talking about and to me. In God's mercy and graciousness, He allowed me to see the truth/or hypocrisy of my life. I didn't know Him. I rarely read my bible and it was always a struggle. I could sound and look like I was a strong Christian, but underneath there was no foundation.
As I sought the truth and studied who God truly is for the first time in my life, things started to change. He worked in my heart in a way I have never experienced. He showed me, a VERY strong willed, capable woman, what it meant to submit not just to Him but to my husband. Why should I submit to my husband? That seems to rub everyone the wrong way. Because God has created the world and everything in it with designed order and purpose - not because anyone is more important or better, but because we have different roles to play.
He graciously held me as I experienced time after time over the last 2 years particularly where I could learn to let go and trust Him. As a very capable woman who has spent most of my life striving, trying to please, achieving and taking the reigns back from God constantly, I am now continuing to experience more peace as I understand God.
His heart, His commands, His forgiveness, His justice, His creation and design, His mercy, grace and love.
I understand for the first time in my whole life what it feels like to be accepted. Not because of anything I have done, but because Jesus loved me enough to pay the price to cover my arrogance, disobedience, pride, hypocrisy and compromise against God's laws. He chose me and wanted me enough to forgive this rebellious child, to die a gruesome and painful death that I fully deserve.
He restored and totally transformed my marriage that was hanging on by a thread. I wasn't even praying for that as I didn't even think it was possible. He was simply working in my heart and changing my life, restoring me to His design and through that, beauty came from the ashes. I am incredibly grateful for this, but also grieve for the years lost that could have been so much more for us. The love that I have for my husband is more than ever before and it stems from the love I have for God and what He has designed and given me through marriage.
Along with this realisation of acceptance is a deep heart for those who have been walking similar "Christian" lives. I can no longer sit quietly and not share the areas God has convicted me. To speak up for the truth that I have discovered through His word. I see the destruction and mockery all around me of God's good design for life, marriage, children, gender, order, creation and it breaks my heart. I have deep concerns for the deception that is happening and so many "Christians" do not have the solid foundation they need to fight against Satan's twisting of the truth.
I will share the things that I have learned and feel He wants me to share. I choose to honour God, His design and His commands. If anyone feels challeneged by anything please ask God to show you the truth. I am not an expert by any means and I constantly find myself humbledbefore Him in awe and wanting to do better - for Him.
I am a woman so transformed and saved by God's truth - the ONLY truth, that I am willing to share because it needs to be heard loudly. How could I not sound the alarm for those who may face eternal consequences?
If anyone wants to chat please feel free to reach out.