10/08/2026
Next month, I turn 52.
My father died at 54.
For the first time,
that number feels very close.
And somehow,
I understand him differently now.
My father felt deeply.
He adored beauty.
He had an eye for things.
And, in many ways,
he was ahead of his time.
It took me years to understand
how much of that we shared.
I feel deeply too.
A person.
A room.
A piece of music.
A beautiful detail.
I take it all in.
For a long time,
I tried to turn down the volume.
To fit in.
It worked.
More or less.
Eventually,
I found my own way.
Into how I see.
How I create.
How I meet people.
And still,
I kept a little of it back.
Now, I want all of it.
So from now on,
I'm turning up the volume.
Not to become louder.
To give all of it
the space it deserves.
And when I turn 54 —
the age my father was when he died —
I hope I can say:
I lived it all.
For you, Dad. ❤️