21/05/2026
At five years today, my loss has become ‘a story’ that many have heard, yet it remains the reality I live day after day, hour by hour. What others hear as words when I share my story on different platforms to different audiences, I still feel as my reality in the trembling of my hands, in my palms that still sweat, in the brokenness that lingers within, though l show a brave front… And yet, I continue to share, because behind the story beats the rhythm of a love so true, a union formed by God’s grace, lived fully, and cherished deeply.
At five years today, the ache has not vanished, nor has the question ‘why?’ found answers… Why such beauty should end so abruptly, I cannot say… But I choose to rest… Rest in the sovereignty of a loving, covenant keeping God, the one who has walked beside me through these years, whispering peace and comfort in the darkest nights. The one who has placed family and friends by my side to journey with me each day. I take comfort in knowing that nothing in life escapes His hand. My loss did not surprise Him, nor was He overcome by the adversary. He was in control then, and He remains in control now.
As Job’s chapter 42 came, so too shall mine come in this life and in eternity, when I behold my beloved Lawrence again at Jesus’ feet. To God be the glory, for even in sorrow God writes a greater story, and even in brokenness He plants the seeds of everlasting hope.
I celebrate the life of a man worthy of double honour. A man whose story will forever be engraved in my heart of hearts.
The Lord reigns forever!
