06/16/2026
No filter
No fear
Built from Chaos
Focused on purpose.
It is funny to think where I used to be to where I am today.
The behaviors, the feelings, the thoughts and the emotions.
I used to feel that life demanded I be armored up and have to protect myself from everything and everyone. I used to be so very defensive. Never once did I reflect on who I was or wanted to be, simply who everyone else wanted me to be.
I fought the river often, life became hard and then harder and then I chose to withdraw. But I kept the armor on. Ready to draw that sword.
A good friend of mine, after telling me about an experience she had had, shared that it might be good for me. Pfft...why? What was wrong with me? Why did I need that? She said..."woah Barb"...
Right then, right there...I noticed. I noticed that my action did not warrant some retaliation. I noticed that my good friend had experienced something she thought I might be interested in.
That is when the chaos truly started. I had to choose to put the sword down and hear, rather than assume what the real message through communication was. From there I started to question, accept and think differently about my armor, my attitude and my actions.
I started to build a different version of who I wanted to show up as, I wanted to be curious and challenge my old "survival" ways. In doing that, I found gifts buried beneath the rubble I was blowing up. I found a vulnerable woman just trying to find her path while being okay to be seen. I found a woman who is wholehearted and human. I found a purpose. My purpose.
It is a long road, but one I am grateful to be still walking down.
🙏🏻🦋🙏🏻
