06/21/2026
Well here we are, on Saturna, a year since we celebrated Steve’s life, on the Solstice, on Father’s Day. It all feels like a lot. So many circles and cycles closing and repeating, sometimes I feel breathless in the spinning.
Coming home to Saturna always does this anyway, although not born here, all my awareness started here. I feel my parents around, my Dad who awoke in me love of nature and perhaps just a bit of trauma of living precariously and always just flying by the seat of your pants! Being his daughter is one of my biggest privileges.
Then my Love Steve, he’s so interwoven with all my experiences since childhood when he would give me a quarter or a puka shell to ride my bike at recess or then in my teen years when he became my whole world. Watching him become a father is also one of my biggest privileges. Going from being a Boser to a Lawson had its bumps and lumps for sure but becoming a member of this warm and wonderful clan is also such a privilege and to my Father in law Bill, you are an epic soul of a man and to my sister in law Deb, mourning her beloved Archie (this is also their wedding anniversary) I love you!
As I sat writing this John Denver’s Good to be back home again came on and I was transported back to 1975. We had moved to Gleichen,Alberta the year before and my parents struggled, my Dad with work and my Mom with adapting so exactly a year later we packed up and moved back and driving through the Rockies, our lives packed into our green station wagon I woke up to this song playing on the radio and my parents singing joyously to it, we were going home to our island, I felt so safe, so happy and the rest is history.
Kendall and I went to Russell’s Beach last night and spent hours beachcombing and reminiscing of the picnics with my parents and Cory, of shake and bake chicken and potato salad while we swam until dark. Although bittersweet I’m such a lucky human to have these times in my back pocket, such a treasure. Happy Father’s Day to those Earthside and to my dearest souls Spirit side. And to the rest a most Blessed Solstice.🌞🐦⬛🌞🐦⬛
