04/22/2024
π§ββοΈπ§ββοΈRule #32π§ββοΈπ§ββοΈ
They say it's the little moments in life that matter most. I absolutely agree. As I have mentioned in previous posts, life has been booting me in the behind hard for the last while, making it incredibly difficult to find any semblance of joy, beauty, peace, or love. For a person who can normally find light in even the darkest of times, this has been especially difficult, making rising out of this slump infinitely more difficult.
Today, however, light came to me in the form of these two awesome men. They are working on the building next to me atop a scissor lift, putting on a simply wonderful concert while doing so. For two hours I have been serenaded by them to top 40 songs on a local radio station, including the occasional dance performance thrown in for good measure.
I am positive that they know that they can be seen and heard during their delightful performance, yet they do not care. They are being their carefree selves, enjoying life and living in the moment, showing their appreciation for it by joining in with the artist. As I sit and occasionally glance out the window to see what antics they are up to next, I am overcome with a plethora of emotions battling their way to the surface.
Joy in seeing others enjoying life in these tumultuous times. Humour when they do a little wiggle to the beat. Sorrow that I cannot seem to find it in me to be carefree as I was not long ago. Angry that life has once again pulled this routine of pulling the rug out from under me when I finally find a semblance of peace. Doubt that I will ever find a way out of this seemingly neverending darkness and the beasties within picking at me like vultures on a not quite yet expired carcass.
But the biggest, and most important one, Hope. Hope that I, too, will be back in my light as the silly, carefree, find light and beauty in everything around me person that I am. I have never been one to remain down when I stumble. I always get back up stronger, more determined and sure of myself and my path in life, ready to take on anything that comes my way.
And while I have been lost in the dark for the longest period yet, I have a sliver of Hope reignited once again within, and that sliver is all that I need to kindle the fire within back to life. This is why today I celebrate and am grateful for being silly while not caring one iota what anyone thinks about it, and the freedom and whimsy it brings to our lives β€οΈ
