06/12/2023
When I was 41+5 days pregnant with Grayson, I went into labor, so naturally I assumed I'd be starting my second labor process around the same time. I was wrong; I was pregnant for another week! When I reflect back, I can see the lessons that I could take from both pregnancies.
✨Patience
I was challenged so much that those last few weeks of pregnancy are uncomfortable, then add going "over" with constant messages, it can test patience! But everyday I reminded myself that there were two people on this journey: my little girl and I, and she knows when the time is right for her.
✨Trust
I learned to trust in myself and intuition more and more as those around me, including my Midwifery Team, doubted that it was normal to carry past 40 weeks. Her presence actually stressed me out rather than empower and encourage me, as a soon-to-be laboring woman should be. I trusted that it was better for my mindset to not engage with her often. A woman who is about to labor needs support, encouragement and positive reminders, not mistrust and projection of others' fears.
✨Prediction is impossible
There is no algorithm, chart or equation that will accurately figure out when you're going into labor. No ultrasound can predict the size or when baby is coming, no cervical exam can predict "how much longer", and definitely not research from the 1800s with a small sample of women is going to tell me what is accurate or not because it's just simply not predictable.
✨Surrender
To simply surrender to the unknowns of this journey. My baby decides when the time is right and she is fully developed, who was I to intervene with the process? I repeated this over and over to remind myself. The mental battle of those days are challenging; the battle between the deep messaging you received of birth throughout your life and the re-learning of what birth can look like, have a way of ebb and flowing. This is why surrendering to your journey is important. You are not in control, no one is.