06/10/2026
Some people have a natural ability or gift, to see the glimmers - to hold optimism and hope - to reach for and be able to touch and feel their gratitude.
And if you were one of those people, you might notice that you can access self compassion without wrestling for it, or to be able to ground in gratitude and regulation without striving
If you are one of those people, you may not relate to this statement
But for some of you, whether it’s because of anxiety, panic, depression, grief, and loss - perhaps trauma, rejection, loneliness - maybe even burn out or chronic illness
You might recognize this statement, feel it, get it.
You might understand that sometimes there are layers, complexities, or barriers between ourselves and gratitude, between ourselves and contentment, between ourselves and peace
And so this statement might ring true
That sometimes we can recognize that we have an amazing life, but the ability to feel amazed, the ability to feel contentment, the ability to feel joy, the ability to feel hope feels so out of reach, it feels like we grasp for it and then it slips through our fingers
And we beat ourselves up when it happens, ashamed. We hate when we can’t stay grounded, when we struggle to feel gratitude, when we struggle to feel optimism
This post is to remind you that you are not alone
You are not alone in feeling like you reached for amazement and and gratitude and sometimes it’s hard to hold onto
And that if this is true for you, it does not mean that you are failing, it is not a flaw in your character
Sometimes it’s just true, we can have an amazing life but also have a lot of hardships too
And the weight of depression or anxiety or OCD or trauma, or grief, can sometimes be heavier, can sometimes take up more space, can sometimes create a lot of barriers between us and amazement
And if this is you please please know that you can reach out anytime, to process some of the barriers, identify strategies to move through them, to find healing, even just a safe space to find acceptance and understanding for why gratitude or mindfulness might not be easy to do right now