12/08/2025
I spent all day yesterday doing my usual ponderings of what the hell to do with my life, asking myself how I can find a job that is the unicorn, needle-in-the-haystack job that fulfills me to my core. What is my true calling? What is my purpose. What am I supposed to do with my gifts? What are my gifts?
Then I woke up and saw a post by with the same line of thinking.
I've asked myself these questions throughout my whole life. And I know it's my open G centre (for my HD folx). And 2-line ponderings.
I feel in my bones I'm getting closer and closer to putting down my search, the magnifying glass is getting heavy, hopeless.
What I've been searching for is actually already in me. The pull. There is one, into a general direction. It's simply my interests. Letting myself follow them is a whole other thing.
Do what I love and the money will follow they say.
Have I ever really tested this theory out? No. Have I ever truly tried and given that my best shot? No. It's vulnerable as hell but I have to try.
I'm 38 yrs old now, if not now, when?