07/10/2023
I sometimes want to share so much with this world and trying to find those words, I start to fall in silence. My life is so magical and full of intens and beautiful moments. Everything that seems easy, is super complex at the same time. All darkness it brings it also holds as much light. Today on easy saturday I woke up with a baaaaaaad mood. Really bad. I hardly was able to connected to my kids and I just cleaned and cleaned the house. Today on an easy saturday just cleaning the house I dealed with the grief of losing my husband, realizing that hope is impossible because I allready found the love of my life, I bitterly cried and my two kids huged me to calm me down, my closest friends called out for me, I made new plans for my life, I worked on selfesteem issues, chated with some interesting man, cooked tasty food, cared for our cat and also connected to a beautiful woman, that was my angel in March this year walking along the habor of Baltimore crying like baby because I miss Nelson soooooo much that my heart still breaks over and over again. And I speak this out to show that even on easy days we always create and every moment holds a chance to release and grow.
