04/12/2024
Hyperfocus can be a fun filled adventure.
Both exciting and calming at the same time.
The things you learn and create are boundless.
And there lies a problem...
For me, painting is a super-shiny object ✨️
I love it's endless possibilities and soothing repetitive rhythm.
Experimenting with colour and techniques gives me pots filled with dopamine.
It helps me slow down and I feel at peace when I paint. It's also something just for me.
"This is it!" I thought. My self care practice has gone up a few notches [pats myself on my back].
Especially as it helps curb the unhelpful work-based hyperfocus I easily slip into.
With all these positives, I didn't see a single drawback.
Until I recognised I was hyperfocusing on my painting.
And that calling it self-care, does not automatically make it self-care.
A s**t, balls, fu*k realisation🤦🏼♀️
So whilst I get hyperfocus is getting so absorbed in something, we tune out to everthing going on around us, (and this can be of great benefit)...I didnt realise how much I lost track of time passing, my need to eat, drink and go for a wee. And how exhausted I was getting.
Compunded by the fact I don't have strong cues that say I need to eat, drink, go for a wee or rest at the best of times.
So I guess my point here is, hyperfocusing on stuff that make us feel good, can mean we then don't feel good.
And (note to self) before we start the ol self criticism / d'oh why did I do that, can we remind ourselves it's OK if our interest-and-fun-seeking-brains need some boundaries.
Hold onto the joy when you find it, and find ways to let go, so you don't neglect your own needs ♥️
Have you struggled with this too?
Mel x
p.s. the image is a mural in progress on my bedroom wall....I've had to take a break from it but hope to come back to it soon 😊
