30/10/2021
I haven’t posted a great deal recently through this channel as I haven’t been training or following a consistent regime / program. I’d feel hypocritical to post exercise / health info when i’m not practising what I preach.
So this is me now after a couple months of cutting myself some slack, not training and eating what I like (god it’s been fun). So this week I’ve motivated myself to make good decisions and live better habits. Eat better and get myself back into a conducive training program. So why the break? Well this year has been a hard one which has compromised both my physical and mental health (much like a lot of us) and I just felt the best thing was to stand back, eat as much chocolate as I wanted and give my body some time to recover (outside of surfing and skating).
FYI, this is not a post looking for sympathy, or to check if I’m ‘OK’. I’m fine. It’s simply being transparent with myself and a step of acceptance of where I have been.
Firstly, I am not a victim. Everything that has happened and continues to happen is always my own responsibility. Secondly, what am I doing to take responsibility for myself?
So as much as you may agree that it’s Ok not be Ok, I refuse to use this mindset to make excuses, justify or take comfort in these types of ‘sayings’ and ‘hashtags’. Making excuses to simply except poor physical and mental health is not taking responsibility. I owe myself more and I deserve more from myself.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s great to see so much more awareness to both mental and physical health in our society, especially in these crazy times, but we have to be careful not to desensitise and saturate our minds to think it’s acceptable to live this way. Nobody can change yesterday and nobody can guarantee tomorrow. So instead focus on the now.
We are all individuals and we all have our own journeys, no journey is the same and we undertake many in a lifetime.
This is my journey right now, to forgive myself, to apologise to myself, to love myself and to be thankful to myself! In this I hope to share the same sentiments with others.
I am looking forward to training and posting more content again, one day at a time 🤙🏼