14/08/2026
A Solar Eclipse ... ๐๐
Iโve been in a space of reflection and surrender ... love and forgiveness โฆ all of it.
But more and more, Iโm seeing the importance of simply being here now ~ staying present and savouring the moments while they are actually happening.
Because life is often bittersweet ...
We are always swaying somewhere between two ends of a scale ~ between the desires of the heart and the mindโs deepest fears.
They say now is the time to quantum leap ๐
But I think โฆ if it were really as simple as that, wouldnโt we have leaped through every other major portal already?
We cannot rush a nervous system that is undoing generations of pain ... and we cannot force a body into expansion when it is still learning what safety feels like.
Sometimes we donโt need to leap ~
We need to learn how to flow.
I gave up manifestation a couple years back ...
Not because I stopped dreaming or holding intentions for my life ... and not because I believe there is nothing beautiful within those teachings.
I have received so much wisdom through New Age spirituality over the years, and there are teachings I still carry with me, woven gently into the way I live and practise.
But something in me has changed ...
Now, I pray with intention ~
I bring the desires of my heart to God
I speak them honestly, and I ask for guidance ...
I ask for what I desire, and then I leave it with God.
I surrender the outcome
Prayer and trust in God have become my โmanifestationโ.
I no longer feel the need to grip so tightly around the how, the when, the where, or the timeline.
I can desire deeply without trying to control, and I can pray boldly without demanding ... trusting that what I want is not always what I need, and that God sees beyond what I can.
I can plant the seed and trust God with how it grows ...
And I think that surrender has brought me far more peace than constantly trying to align, attract, clear, activate or become magnetic enough for what I desire.
Because sometimes spirituality can become another performance ...
These spiritual moments can carry a quiet pressure to do more, clear more, manifest more ~ as though we might miss some invisible deadline if we simply allow our bodies to rest, digest and actually experience the miracle of being here now.
And I think that is where spirituality can become so dangerous.
When it stops bringing us home to ourselves and begins convincing us that we are constantly behind ... or missing an opportunity to โfixโ something.
That there is always another portal ... another timeline, another frequency to reach, another version of ourselves we should be trying to become.
It can keep us in a loop of striving, searching and over-pouring โฆ when often, the nervous system simply needs a moment to catch up, integrate, rest and embody where it actually is.
To be here in this present moment and feel ~
S A F E T Y
There is no spiritual deadline ... and, there is no cosmic door about to slam shut because you didnโt manifest quickly enough ๐
You are allowed to move slowly and to change your mind, your intentions, your prayers ... even what you once thought you wanted.
You are allowed to let your body catch up with everything your soul has already survived ~
To pray, surrender it to God โฆ and then go and live your life.
Iโm learning that I donโt need to force, chase or constantly search for signs ...
I can trust that I am already held and guided, and that what is meant for me does not require spiritual performance to receive it.
I just keep becoming ~ becoming her.
The woman who is wild and free ~ she who can grieve and praise, soften and roar, love deeply without abandoning herself.
She carries the wisdom of where she has been without being bound to it ...
Sacred and human, rooted and free.
Surrender isnโt giving up on what I desire ... Itโs trusting to place those desires somewhere safer than fear ~ in the hands of God.
Maybe the greatest quantum leap isnโt into another timeline at all ...
Perhaps ... it is finally learning to inhabit this one
Fully Present & Alive
Savouring the sweetness ... Allowing the bitterness, and Holding both without needing to escape either.
Iโm trusting that what is meant for me does not require me to abandon myself or my becoming in order to receive it.
I can pray with intention ... move when I feel led ... and release when my body asks me to.
Because what is mine does not need to be chased.
And what God is asking me to become cannot be rushed.
~ Wild Woman Alchemy ๐นโค๏ธ