26/01/2023
"I'll just buy another test...."
I cannot tell you how many pregnancy tests I went through when I was pregnant with Ember. And I definitely don't want to think about how much money I must have spent, but I couldn't help it, I *needed* to see that line or the word "pregnant" every single day just to make sure it was still real. Logically, after four losses, I knew that it was never going to be the pregnancy test that told me I was or wasn't miscarrying, but logic somehow isn't really applicable when it comes to pregnancy after loss, and while it might seem a ridiculous thing to do, it kept me going for those first few weeks and that's what mattered.
I talked about this with the a few months back, and was relieved to find I definitely wasn't alone in my pregnancy test obsession. Sometimes pregnancy after loss can feel like a strange and lonely place, but I can assure you there are a whole lot of us out there who've been there and who understand.
If you want to listen to the recording or if you want to come along to one of my sessions, then head to the link in my bio 💙 And if you'd like further support, head over to The Miscarriage Association - they have some amazing resources.
