10/08/2026
# # # 🌱 As I Heal… “You Have Nothing to Worry About”
Recently, I heard intuitively:
**“Are you going to the doctor?”**
And then I heard a child's voice say:
**“God doesn't like messages.”**
At first, I wondered what these words were trying to tell me.
Then something occurred to me…
Perhaps my inner child was still looking for the love, safety and attention that I experienced when I went to the doctor as a little girl.
I was born in 1963, and things were very different then.
We had a family doctor who knew our family. I remember being sat on his knee and being given a lollipop.
Going to the doctor wasn't necessarily something I feared. In some ways, it was a place where I received attention, comfort and reassurance.
When I think about my childhood, there were also so many voices around me telling me what was right and wrong — teachers, priests, relatives and my dad.
Perhaps my younger self learned that the doctor was one of the places where I could feel safe, cared for and listened to.
So when I heard:
**“Are you going to the doctor?”**
I began to wonder whether this wasn't simply about going to a doctor at all.
Maybe some part of me was asking:
**“Are you going back to the place where you felt cared for?”**
And then last night, I heard:
**“You have nothing to worry about.”**
That really made me stop and think.
Could this be the reassurance that my younger self was looking for?
The reassurance that perhaps she had needed to hear all those years ago?
Today, things are very different. We don't generally have that same relationship with a family GP that I remember from childhood. Appointments can be short, doctors are under enormous pressure, and the experience can feel very different.
But perhaps healing isn't about trying to recreate what we had then.
Perhaps it's about recognising what we needed then — and learning how to give some of that to ourselves now.
So I can listen to that little girl.
I can acknowledge that she wanted to feel safe.
I can give her the attention she was looking for.
And I can remind her:
**“You have nothing to worry about.
You are safe.
You are loved.
I am here with you.” ❤️**
Maybe that is what healing is sometimes…
Not finding someone else to give us the reassurance we needed as children, but becoming the safe person for ourselves.
🌱 **As I heal, I learn.
As I learn, I understand.
And as I understand, I can choose something different.**