02/06/2026
I have been struggling with anxiety since my early adulthood. As a child, I was already very conscientious and prone to rumination; I found it difficult to move on if I accidentally made a mistake, said something wrong, or hurt someone. It didn’t help that the adults around me often made me feel even more guilty in those situations, instead of offering calm discussion or comfort. (the 80s and 90s)
I grew into an anxious adult with a strong need to please others, afraid to stand up for myself, and easily slipping into harmful, unbalanced relationships and work environments. There were particularly difficult periods, with insomnia, near-fainting panic attacks, air hunger and episodes of uncontrollable crying.
Then after 40 (I’m 46 now), I finally began to consciously unpack why I feel anxious even when I am safe, and why I experience that visceral sense of loneliness and being an outsider even when I am surrounded by people. I started cognitive therapy, read extensively on the subject, and then about two years ago I immersed myself in somatic bodywork and holistic healing, which organically led to a career change, and I became a therapist myself.
I studied and practiced obsessively, completing numerous trainings over these two years, both abroad, at home, and online. I studied meditation, conscious breathing, energy work, various massage techniques, trauma-informed space holding, Ayurvedic approaches, Hawaiian and Ta***ic philosophy and rituals, and I continuously explore materials related to psychology and the nervous system.
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