05/06/2026
Back in high school 🏫- I was this girl who would just hate you for no reason - hate is strong 💪 right but that how I felt - if I didn’t like you I could not pretend. Well this happened even in 2022 before I left employment one 1️⃣ day I asked almost 30 colleagues to give a genuine review on me and this came out out - If you love someone you do so with all your being but if you hate or dislike 👎 the world 🌍 will know - story for another day why I did that
Back in high school 🏫 - from home we didn’t have much thanks to the White Water House Coupers who sponsored me and yes they took care of everything except the barbed wire for jumping over the fence 🤣🤣 - Actually Mrs Akunja threatened to call them 🤣🤣
So, I would hate these girls who seemed to come from homes 🏠- that looked like they had things going on: I disliked them - any harm they did to me? No
Anything they did to offend my pack NONE- But I disliked from how they walked, they talked , the ate , actually I even disliked how they ate 🙈
They would buy snacks during break I hated them for that, they would come with shopping - 🛍️ I hated them for that, they would have extra text books 📚 for revision aaahh, they would have these nice toughees shoes 👞 I hated them even more and to top it if the performed better than me NKT and if I performed better than them it was NKTEST
Reflecting on these actions today - it’s not because I hated them - they exposed what I wished I could have.
They had what I didn’t have.
They had fathers
They had mothers
They had money 💰- Atleast from my eyes 👀
They had love - I was a loner
These drew me into one thing - I was rebellious, averagely performing studen (best in languages by the way especially Swahili I - fasihi knew my name) - Maths aaahh Mr Oduor go away 🤣
These girls exposed my subconscious
These girls exposed what I was hiding 🫣
These girls exposed me - that’s why
Today - you as an adult 👩 - you see someone expressing themselves and you feel irritated 😠- it’s because you know your voice was taken long before today - they are exposing something inside you
That car 🚗 you saying was taken on loan 💵- it’s because you don’t have it and might not even be able to access that amount of loan - so you go like - I can’t take a loan to buy a 🚗
That dressing - I can’t use 50,000 for just a suit -
I. Any buy a phone worth 300,000 for what?
Anyway we learn daily
I hope you heal from the unspoken resentment or let’s call it subtle resentment
