GrowDeep w. Laura Camacho

10/12/2020

We can’t control the world around us. We can control how we respond

15/11/2020

13/09/2020

Ch. 17

17/04/2020

The emptiness you are feeling right now, is there for a reason.
You feel empty because you are disconnected from your life force energy.
You are disconnected from your own Divinity.
We are so disconnected from spirituality.
Religions have tainted it.
We reject religion and yet we have never been so indoctrinated.
We search for the something.
But we are searching for it in all the wrong places.
We search for it outside ourselves.
In another person, in a job, in a bottle, at the gym, a holiday.
We don’t even know what it is we are trying to access.
We just KNOW that something is missing.
We hear this hum… deep deep underground.
We can hear the hum, but we don’t know what it is.
Where it is!?
The hum is calling you home.
Your lands have been abandoned. Become dry and barren with time.
You inner landscape struggles to bear fruit.
It is time that you reclaim your own divinity – your spirituality – it is time that you come home to yourself.
Nourish the earth of your inner world.
Reconnect to the Source of energy that is available to you – and is you.
The missing piece in your life is devotion to yourself and Oneness.
- Laura

17/04/2020

How often do you take off the mask?
And let people see the real you?
Before I started doing this work, I didn’t even know I wore a mask.
That I wore several.
- Damsel in distress: “I can’t do this” and I’d make doe-eyes at that fella’ for help.
- Superwoman: ”I can bring home the bacon, fry it up in a pan, and never let you forget you’re a man”. And I wouldn’t dream of admitting something was too much or that I needed help.
- Devoted friend: ANYTHING you need. Always and forever. No matter the cost to me.
- Ice Queen: Ruthless and bossy. Guaranteed to get my way.
When we learn a way that works to get us what we want, it can be hard to change our behavior, even when we aren’t proud of it.
It can be hard to admit that we manipulate people with our actions and that sometimes our behavior is more selfish than it appears.
But this kind of behavior is just like wearing a mask.
It’s not the real you.
Sure, it may get you what you need/want. It may give you the illusion of feeling safe.
But it keeps you disconnected, suffering and at the mercy of others. Not to mention that it is really manipulative. It’s not the truth of who you are. And you don’t need it.
Emotional Recovery is the art of healing those parts of you that don’t feel safe to come out fully in the world. The ones that don’t fully trust that your needs will be met.
Emotional Recovery is the art of stripping away the layers – the masks you wear and roles you play.
It’s vulnerable as hell. But it’s true, and real and free.
Would you really want it any other way?
Reach out if you are ready to remove the masks.
- with love, Laura @ London UK

16/04/2020

Not letting go of something that happened in the past, is like tying yourself up in chains and throwing away the key.
What happened in the past can’t be changed.
No matter how much you go over it in your mind, talk about it or how upset it still makes you.
All you can do is release.
Learn from it, make the adjustments and release.
Allow yourself to heal.
Forgive those around you.
Forgive yourself.
And watch your chains break.

- love, Laura

15/04/2020

I find most TV shows and movies hard to watch. There is SO MUCH DRAMA.
And yeah, that’s the whole point of watching, I know. The drama is what entertains us.

But sitting there, watching the characters:
▪️lie to themselves (cus it’s more comfortable than admitting the hard truth),
▪️omit or twist the truth (cus the truth is uncomfortable),
▪️take the easy option (well, cus it’s easier)
▪️avoid the uncomfortable conversation (cus... yeah, being vulnerable and raw is uncomfortable).
▪️blame others (cus it’s easier than taking responsibility)
▪️lash out (cus you got scared or hurt and owning that is vulnerable and hard)
▪️choose drama over peace (cus admitting you were wrong/hurt/etc. is difficult)

Watching them f**k up their relationships and lives “because doing the right thing is uncomfortable or difficult”, urgh! It really gets me!! Yeah, I can go full therapist on them, screaming at the screen “Noooo, just be honest! Tell him how you really feeeeeel!” or “Don’t screw up your life just to get revenge! It’s not worth iiit!”

The characters on TV don’t listen to me.
But maybe you will.

You don’t have to live a life with drama.
It is actually possible to create relationships where your arguments GROW your relationship, rather than break it. Add spice and spark, rather than assure mutual self-destruction.
Where being raw and vulnerable is seen as a sign of love, trust and creates turn-on.
Where you grow deeper and deeper as time goes on, rather than further and further apart.

I’m not saying that it’s easy. But I am promising that this can be yours if you are willing to do the uncomfortable work.

- love, Laura

15/04/2020

Blaming puts external circumstances - other people and situations - in charge of your happiness.
This makes you feel powerless and out of control.

I used to blame external events for my unhappiness and dissatisfaction.

🥀 “My relationship ended because my boyfriend was emotionally unavailable.”
🌹The hard truth is, I was completely disconnected from myself and so unwilling to look at where I wasn’t happy within myself and my life.

🥀”Work caused me to have a nervous breakdown. “
🌹The hard truth is, I was pushing myself too hard with a full time job, university, volunteer work and a social life, trying to be the perfect modern woman. Again, not connected to myself and the fact that I was living a life and building a career that didn’t make me happy.

🥀”You are not giving me what I wanted/need”
🌹The truth is I didn’t know how to ask for my needs and desires or express hurt and disappointments.

🥀”(S)he was completely unfair and unreasonable and changed out of the blue!”
🌹The truth is, nothing is ever completely out of the blue (I always have a niggling feeling, but I don’t always like what it has to say, so I used to pretend it wasn’t real) and it takes two to tang (we always play a part), but I didn’t have the kiwis to address it, so I avoided it until it became a conflict.

I could on, but you get the point.
Where in life do you blame others? Where do you not want to take responsibility for what is happening and instead blame it on something/someone?

In order to stop feeling like we are at the mercy of others and life, we need to shift out of the victim stance.
Shifting out happens when we realize that we hold the power to make the changes. It’s not always easy, but when we blame, we give our power away.
Whereas, when we accept reality as it is, we are able to take control of the situation.
Sometimes it’s one little step, but it’s a step.

Emotional Recovery teaches you how to stop blaming and shift out of feeling like a victim and powerless. It teaches you how to end your inner turmoil, mental activity and suffering. It gives you the tools to not only accept reality as it is, but also create the reality that you want.

- love, Laura