01/04/2023
Someone posted something today that really hit home and it made me think.
So lately I haven't been myself I have new injuries on top of my old ones so am limiting what I can actually achieve which is hard because I have so much I want to do but my body won't let me. But today when I was sitting in the paddock with this lot just having time to recover and to process what I've been bottling up it hit home, alot of things I don't really discuss, things I keep inside because who truly would care or who would understand and who can you truly trust because not everyone that turns up in your life is truly your friend. It's times like this when you really understand the power of true friendship. Yes my horses are my safe place yes I get hurt yes I probably shouldn't do stuff I do but it happens and it's not smart but when I stop take a breath and just be in the moment with them it really changes who I am for the better. So for the last few months I have stopped being what everyone wants me to be I've stopped trying to please everyone because physically and mentally I can't. But I have also noticed things change along the way in a good way I have an amazing group of friends who are like family and they truly understand me and don't treat me like I'm sick or judge me because I have bad days they have been a support team for me, they have helped me even tho they have stuff going on and I am truly thankful to everyone of them and they know who they are so thank you ❤️ I may not be the best at communicating because I don't like to burden anyone but sometimes it's nice to know that someone cares. It's just a reminder that even tho you don't have to talk to people every day when you truly need them they are there regardless. So I hope that anyone who reads this has this sort of support system and genuine people who just message to wish you a good day or if you message and say I need you they are there for you because that's rare. And if you don't then I truly hope you find them ☺️
Also we give people to much of our time and miss out on the ones that were there all along no drama no back stabbing will tell it straight to your face and not behind your back kind of people. We all have demons we need to face and we all have done things we shouldn't have but passing judgement seems to be a huge thing lately so please if you truly care about someone check in see how they're doing don't sit there and assume you think you know what's going on or that they're ok cause sometimes they don't want to burden you with their problems and yet all they would love is someone just to check in and say hi or did you want to catch up we are always so focused on ourselves or what's on social media that I think we need to stop and really focus on what truly matters. Because sometimes the simplest things can change things without you realising. You never know how much someone really needed that smile or that compliment or even that message you sent them as with these photos nothing is ever as simple as black and white 🐴
