Between Scrubs and Sujood

16/06/2026

07/06/2026

One of the hardest parts of working in the NICU is witnessing a parent's pain.
I had a baby who was already on DNR status due to multiple critical conditions. Every day, the mother would come to visit. I could see the sadness in her eyes and the tears she tried so hard to hold back.
What made it even harder was knowing that this was her first child. After all the hopes, dreams, and prayers, she was faced with the possibility of having only a short time with her baby.
She wanted nothing more than to hold her child, but because the baby was intubated and connected to so many lines and machines, it seemed almost impossible. Eventually, she accepted the situation and stopped asking, knowing how fragile her baby was.
But I couldn't stop thinking about her wish. I did my best to make it possible, even if only for a few seconds.
Alhamdulillah, she was able to hold her baby in her arms.
It was only a brief moment, but sometimes a few seconds can become a memory that lasts a lifetime. As nurses, we cannot always change the outcome, but we can help create moments of love, comfort, and dignity for the families who trust us with their most precious treasures. 🤍

03/06/2026

Ya Allah, I place my affairs in Your hands. You know what is in my heart and what I am striving for. If this transfer is good for my faith, my life, and my future, then make it easy for me and open the doors for it. If it is delayed, grant me patience. If it is not meant for me, replace it with something better than I can imagine. Ya Allah, give me strength when I feel weak, hope when I feel discouraged, and contentment with Your decree. Ameen

26/05/2026

The trip my soul needs

21/05/2026

I feel sad because people see my gentle and soft personality as a weakness😣💔

15/05/2026

I want to raise a complaint to MOH regarding the unsafe staffing conditions and working environment in our unit.
Currently, nurses are being assigned up to 7 patients each, which is becoming extremely unsafe for both staff and patients, especially newborn babies who require close monitoring and proper care. Due to the excessive workload, we are no longer able to provide the standard quality of care expected from us. This situation is not only physically exhausting, but also mentally and emotionally draining for the nursing staff.
Despite our best efforts, patient safety is already being compromised because of understaffing and overwhelming patient assignments. We are also expected to complete extensive documentation and system-related tasks while handling these patient loads.
I would also like to address concerns regarding the preceptorship and orientation process. Although the probationary period stated in the contract is 6 months and proper preceptorship is expected, nurses are often left to work independently after only one month without adequate guidance or support. This is especially difficult for nurses without prior newborn or NICU experience.
Additionally, our unit frequently experiences 4 to 10 staff absences daily, yet no effective action or staffing solution has been implemented. Nurses continue to work under severe pressure and exhaustion.
During Hajj and Eid periods, staff are sometimes required to work 9 consecutive days without proper consideration for staff well-being and rest. This level of workload and scheduling is deeply concerning and affects both patient care and employee welfare.
Furthermore, we are lacking sufficient resources in the unit, making it even more difficult to provide safe and effective healthcare services.