09/08/2023
I know it's crazy... funny... yet spirit is telling me to go for it. I know there are fires in Maui now and that we shouldn't visit. It came all of a sudden. Yet, my soul kept probing me to go to Maui on the 9th. Specifically on singapores birthday. They said I'd be protected, I'd have a space to stay that all is already set in stone.... is this true? This time around it wasn't a storm or whirlwind that I was not gonna be affected by... but a huge fire that I might get affected by cause the whole island is in crisis mode and majority of the consciousness there I believe is filled with fear and anxiety. I feel the same but I know it is not mine to keep.
I am there to bless the land and to activate something within myself for deep change to occur. I know this well. That it's my sacred last stop before I head home. Yet I am more afraid than I was before. But yet I am feeling more loved and supported than I ever was before. Spirit has kept cleansing my soul of fear and reassuring me constantly this where they want me to be today. And that all shall be well. That all has already been done. That the souls I'm meant to encounter have already agreed to come in and assist me. I only need to show up.
I am not sure what else is gonna happen. I feel like this whole trip has been wild. Seriously wild. And I don't encourage anyone to do what I do unless you can clearly hear and decipher spirit voice from your own and the collective ego. I still have a hard time trusting at times so I keep asking for confirmation. The more it repeats even after days, I know it is spirit and more so when I get chills in my body. That's a clear sign of my guides and soul looking after me.
I know I'm on the right path. Am I brave enough to do it? Will I choose to go home instead? It's been 5 weeks....now... I still have 3 more weeks. I don't know what to expect at all. I received messages that I will encounter something not too good but it will become a new opportunity for me. I am anxious about that.... yet I am feeling brave and confident. I want to conquer this. When I can conquer this, I know I am capable of more and anything less than this whole 2 month completely unplanned but spirit led trip will lead me to trust in source more, be more integrated as a human and more importantly be able to handle rejection better and keep chasing my dreams. I want my life force energy back. I want to become so resilient nothing can ever touch or shake me ever again. Not even the ones I love. I want to become a whole and complete version of myself that even with lower vibrations and energies present, I can still feel so connected and held by the oneness of all source. That light always exists wherever I go and whomever I become and interact with. And so it is.