09/23/2026
2 days until 40!!!!
One thing I’ve learned on the way here is that I hope I never get too grown.
Too grown to blow bubbles
Too grown to laugh too loud
Too grown to play
Too grown to get excited about little things
Too grown to be silly
Too grown to change my mind
Too grown to try something just because it sounds fun
Too grown to experience wonder
I spent enough of my life learning how to be responsible, take care of people, and how to keep going when life required more from me than I felt like I had to give.
Somewhere along the way, though, I learned that maturity and playfulness don’t have to be opposites.
Growing up doesn’t have to mean growing hard.
Healing has actually made me softer in some places. It has given me permission to experience things I may have once considered childish, unnecessary, or a waste of time simply because they make me happy.
At almost 40, I don’t only want a successful life.
I want a life that actually feels good to live.
