09/10/2026
moving across the country = commence multiple meltdowns..
i’ve posted so much of the joy.. but yall know i gotta keep it real with you.
did i trust fall into the unknown? yea! does that mean it’s all sunshine and fkn rainbows? 🤣 absolutely not.
leaving all the comfort zones.. massive changes.. new environments.. new climates.. new rules..
like ripping off a full body band aid.. one that’s been there for 8+ years..
and.. WHOA.. let me tell you.. the meltdowns have been real!! .. the crying on the floor.. the wanting to “go home”.. the dealing with new neighbors.. new sounds.. new EVERYTHING.. THAT.. that’s a hard one..for anyone..
if you’re like me.. than add the AUDHD.. the trauma responses... and all the things that a neurotypical mind wouldn’t even fathom to think of..
the things i’ve cried over are probably quite insane appearing on the outside.. but my brain.. well it’s wired differently and that’s perfectly okay..
as i’ve always said.. it’s not about NOT spiraling.. or NOT feeling.. nor is it about feeling shame for it..
it’s about coming back from it.. about finding the present again..
it’s about finding a way to breathe.. to ground.. to find the root of the meltdown..
it’s about finding the grace we need to give ourselves…
and in the end it’s about TRULY letting go of the control…
which i will say.. is so much easier to do when you’ve got the support of people who love you and understand you..
when you have someone present to give you what you need in the moment..
instead of people who get angry.. don’t understand you or judge you..
which is why it’s so important to focus on the roots.. your roots..
the support system you surround yourself with .. the trust in the unknown… the feeling safe in our own body.. in the moment.. even when it all feels like it’s crashing down..
was that a total ramble? maybe? probably. idk.
just here to say even when you take the leap.. don’t expect it to be fear free.. but do know you are safe.. you are loved.. and you are exactly where you’re meant to be 💜