10/05/2021
Scrolling through Facebook and I found this! I had to re-read a few times to actually comprehend what I was actually reading.
Times have been tough, in no way am I trying to portray that this is not the case.
-I have gone to bed screaming from the inside out, how angry I was with him.
-I have gone to bed crying myself to sleep, knowing he is not the man the media, justice system, and overall personal opinions see him as.
- I have gone days doubting not only myself, but him as well as the two of us as a unit.
- I have replayed every event: day by day, hour by hour, and second by second.
- I have remembered the, the horrible days, not so good days, and THE REALLY GOOD DAYS!
- I have sat for hours, and literally done a pros and cons list for why we should continue our relationship, or come to terms with maybe this isn't for the best?
-I have also sat for hours, left with the butterfly feelings he's left for me.
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-We were in NO way, looking for a relationship.
-We both needed a friend. I was going through some terrible personal issues, he was going through some pretty deep trauma issues ( his story to tell not mine).
-There was some deep emotional detachment (on my part).
-We spent 24/7 together, yet he/I/we felt miles apart. -There was communication break downs, either screaming louder then needed at each other, or not speaking at all.
-There was learning: Learning to love yourself first, then learning to love the other, finally learning to love each other as a whole. (Without Me There is No Him, Without Him There is No Me!)
-We had known eachother a lifetime, yet we didn't know eachother at all.
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Don't ever doubt yourself, you are stronger then you know.
You are the most important piece to your puzzle, not the other way around.
*We got this*
