11/11/2025
From Chapter 11 of Rooted Soul: The Me Turns into WE
“The Divine Feminine power of Kali liberated the toxic masculine energy within me. The Divine Feminine energy of Grandmother Ayahuasca held me, instilling in me the compassion to forgive, opening my heart to allow the Divine Masculine to flow in and expand into every cell. The Divine Feminine and Masculine weaving together activated a power within me I had not sensed before. The best way I can describe the sensation was a beam of radiance.”
Integration is not a moment where you suddenly “get it” and then you’re healed forever. Integration is the ongoing practice of bringing fragmented pieces of yourself back into wholeness, again and again, in deeper and deeper spirals.
For decades, I suppressed my power to be “nice.” I had chosen the feminine over the masculine because I associated the masculine with the men who had hurt me, judged me, abandoned me.
But what I discovered through sacred ceremony is that the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine are not gendered. They’re qualities of consciousness, of energy, of being. The Divine Masculine is protection, boundaries, strength. The Divine Feminine is flow, compassion, creativity, surrender. We need both.
Integration happened when I realized I could be both strong and soft, both powerful and open, both a giver and a receiver. When I wove the fierce protection of the Divine Masculine with the compassionate flow of the Divine Feminine.
This is what integration looks like: not the end of the journey, but the beginning of living as your full self. Not transcending the wounds, but including them. Not reaching some spiritual ideal, but showing up as your actual, messy, beautiful, powerful self in every moment.
We don’t have to choose one or the other. We just have to let love—fierce, protective, flowing, creative love—take up space in all directions. Get your copy today: link in bio