03/26/2026
Sometimes you just gotta talk to the person that feels unseen and let em know…I see you too 🫂 and you’re not alone. It’ll get better. Idk when but I learned to be ok with “soon” even with a bleeding heart. I’m tired too, I be ret ta go too, I don’t be wantin ta hear s**t either after I been drownin in folks face. I be on that nah f**k this, that and you! I be on that why am I even still tryin? Sometimes I wanna bleed all over folks just so I can feel better. But I hope that my hurt give you some hope, a reason, a connection. It’s real in the field just don’t fold 💛
The Hardest Thing I Chose Was Life
I am tired.
Soul-deep tired,
not the kind sleep fixes,
not the kind people see.
My heart puffs,
inflamed with questions
I can’t burn away.
God, I know You—
still, my trust trembles,
my hope leaks
through the cracks I can’t plug.
I want to quit.
I want the quiet, the dark,
the letting go without guilt,
the soft release.
But even in the wanting,
I can’t.
Life drags me under.
Life burns me up.
Life mocks my faith,
tests my patience,
laughs when I wobble.
And still—
I rise.
Not clean.
Not calm.
Not fixed.
Just me.
Alive,
messy,
raw,
choosing the ache,
choosing the fight,
choosing life.
The hardest thing I chose was life—
and I choose it anyway.
When Tears and Ink Meets Paper
Tears hit the page before the pen even moves.
Words tremble out of me
and land, wet and heavy,
so my chest feels lighter
and heavier
all at once.
I lie down after,
eyes still damp,
prayers tangled in my throat,
the weight pressing—but quieter now,
like it’s listening.
I rise.
Hands slick with water,
heart puffy and raw.
I move through ritual:
drink, eat, shower,
show up, touch someone else’s pain,
carry mine like a quiet shadow.
Later,
the water runs over me again.
I look at the sky.
I whisper, I hope,
I let some of it drift beyond me.
This is the pulse of release:
tears and ink meeting paper,
a confession, a prayer, a letting go,
and still—
I move, I show up, I breathe.
And here,
at the edge of the day,
I see a path.
I feel it under my feet,
soft, open, waiting.
I choose it.
I choose to rest.
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