01/08/2025
Good morning. ☀️
Recovering and growing into new positive habits and routines is hard. I get it. It’s especially difficult in addiction to change for the positive when you don’t see anything positive around you. Up close. Looking back on my past I always wanted different. Thought about living different. Making different choices. Truth was in many ways I didn’t know how. Sure I saw other people living healthier more productive lives, but those people were not close to me. They were not largely going to have direct impact on my life. They were outside of the realm In which i lived. I often judged how my life felt on the inside by what other peoples lives looked on the outside. Everybody close to me was doing what I was doing. Chasing a bag. Suffering. Struggling. Lying. Cheating. Stealing. Hustling. Going to jail. You know the gauntlet of daily failures that are the life of addiction. We didn’t have anything to give one another. You just can’t transmit something you don’t have. It wasn’t until I met people who were in recovery. Who had a process of growth and practical experience that they could pass on to me that I was able to get some traction. People who had successfully changed their way of thinking. Living. Learned how to love themselves. Control their impulses. Learned how to build a disciplined routine. Escaped the loop of addiction. Understood where I was. Where I’d been. What it was like and where I wanted to go. Who were once unwell like i was. Who were willing to teach me how to get well. It’s for these and so many other reasons I think I work so hard to have a good understanding of my experience and a willingness to continue growing. It’s makes it possible for me to share what is possible in recovery and how it can be achieved for those who just don’t see anything positive around them. If you are struggling , I know it’s hard but try and get outside the loop, try different things and trust the people who put faith in your ability to change. Listen to them. Learn from them. Honestly seek answers and solutions. Try to implement new ways of thinking and living. Because the truth is as addicts EVERYTHING has to change if ANYTHING in our life is to be different. Luckily it only has to happen one choice, one day, one learning experience at a time. Understand that the people who love and believe in you no matter how far you’ve slid down the scales in life.. those are your people. When they lift you up, thank them by working hard to remain on your feet and grow. You’ll have so much to offer them in return if you just stay the course and give yourself a chance. In order to transform from a life of being spiritually bankrupt to really enriching your being you will need invest in yourself one deposit at a time. The lessons are the currency. You
won’t learn new things staying in the same old places. 💯🚶🏻
Above all when you are stuck in loop and don’t what to do and you feel like all is lost. PRAY ! Even you don’t know how. I promise you prayer works. It might not happen in ways you’d expect or on your timeline .. but I can promise it will change your life. 🙏🕊️
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J.Fish 1/8/2024
