12/24/2025
My birth work led me and my kiddos everywhere we needed to go. Through so much, this is where I found my people and my purpose. All in. Everyone I served proved to be exactly who needed me and exactly who I needed. No mistake in the timeline. No mistake in lessons learned. No mistake in the love, bond and connections shared. Not a moment short. Birth led me to my passions, to my calling, to my friends,to me. Through that it helped me so much personally throughout my own health journey. Through a poor prognosis and reaching end of life care I have found so many things.
The right people at JUST the right time. Not a day late, not a moment short. I have found the voice I worked so heavily with my birth clients to find for themselves. I have found a way to feel security and without fear advocating for MYSELF.
I have found all the same parts of the system I find to be tragic in birth- still exist through death.
There’s so much room to grow for all caretakers and providers.
I have found great bias, I have found those too emotional to give proper care, I have found how easily people take advantage of those they consider to be weak- those without the ability to check behind them. Providers unwilling to discuss a complicated case. With ego too large to admit it. I have found so many more holes first hand within our system as I’ve watched people take advantage- I am left with no resources in times they are so truly necessary for survival. I have witnessed a care team become too emotionally invested which has impacted on my own quality of life. I’ve seen that there is such a grey area for terminal or severely ill patients in my age bracket. Resources don’t exist properly. I’ve seen even those who deal with death daily cry to me about my case. It’s the kids. It’s my age and the age of my children. It hits heavy every time. What about your emotions make you feel that makes this easier for me? I have endured the most whiplash and confusion through providers bias and personal emotion tied to my case. People can’t handle death. This journey has been intense and confusing but beautiful. The few nurses & doctors, the friends, beautiful. As a whole, THE SYSTEM MUST DO BETTER.
