Conscious Mother

08/28/2025

I’ve died more times than I can count.
Not the kind of death that buries you in the ground—
but the kind that strips you of everything you thought you were
until all that’s left is the truth.

And every time, I rise.
Every time, I reinvent.
Every time, I choose devotion over destruction.

Because here’s the thing—darkness will always knock.
It will whisper that it’s easier to stay numb, to stay small, to stay safe.
But I refuse to let the darkness take hold.

Instead, I meet it in my body.
I breathe with it.
I train my nervous system to expand instead of collapse.
I move it, shake it, scream it, pray it.
I let my body become the altar where old cycles burn and new ones are born.

This is why I created Cyclebreaker.
Because we’ve been taught to white-knuckle our way through survival,
to gaslight our own emotions,
to think our way out of pain instead of feeling our way through it.

But breaking the cycle doesn’t happen in the mind.
It happens in the body.
It happens when you stop gripping, surrender into the unknown, and allow yourself to be remade.

That’s why the core of Cyclebreaker is what I call the Holy Rebirth.
Because real transformation is death and resurrection.
It’s letting the old self die, letting the nervous system rewire, letting the soul remember.
It’s where surrender meets embodiment, where pain turns into power, and where you come back alive to yourself.

Reinvention isn’t vanity.
It’s survival.
It’s devotion to your soul’s evolution.
It’s saying: I will die a thousand times if it means I keep living fully alive.

That’s what we do in Cyclebreaker.
We don’t bypass.
We don’t perform.
We don’t grind.

We die and are reborn — again and again — until we remember who the hell we really are.

The next Cyclebreaker Ceremony is on the Equinox.
If you’re ready to meet your own Holy Rebirth, this is your invitation.

08/27/2025

SURRENDER.
The word nobody wants to hear because it means giving up the one thing we’ve been addicted to our whole lives: control.

Cyclebreakers don’t get free by grinding harder.
We get free the moment we unclench our fists, stop fighting life, and finally admit: control was the cage all along.

Surrender isn’t weakness.
It’s the most dangerous, radical, alive thing you can do.
Because surrender says:
“I’m done repeating survival mode. I choose my joy. I choose my soul. I choose to be moved by something bigger than fear.”

That’s when the cycles shatter.
That’s when magic rushes in.
That’s when you finally feel the fire in your bones that says: I am alive, I am here, and I’m not abandoning myself ever again.

This is Cyclebreaker.
It’s not about bypassing or pretending.
It’s about surrendering so hard into your truth that everything false burns away.

So the question is—are you brave enough to let go?

08/26/2025

The desert is more than dust and art. It’s a mirror, a teacher, a village.

At Burning Man, I broke a cycle I had been carrying for years—of silencing my holy yes, of putting responsibility before joy, of abandoning myself.

✨ Radical Self-Expression taught me to love myself out loud—to no longer dim, hide, or shrink. To show up fully in my essence and be celebrated for it.

✨ Radical Inclusion reminded me that there is no outsider here. That in my uniqueness, I am always a part of something greater.

✨ Communal Effort showed me what it means to be held by my community. To let others support me, to honor the masculine, and to finally trust that I don’t have to do it all alone.

✨ Radical Self-Reliance gave me resilience. Dust storms, exhaustion, and challenges became initiations—reminders of my own strength and resourcefulness.

✨ Immediacy brought me back into presence. The now became holy. Joy became the compass. Love became the ceremony.

In this container, I stepped into my leadership.
I got engaged.
I healed layers of my mother wound.
I learned to honor both my feminine and the masculine.
And I remembered that the path forward is not about doing it all—it’s about doing it together.

This is the village.
This is a model for a new way of living—rooted in joy, community, and devotion to the moment.

Burning Man was never just a festival. It was the place I broke the cycle of self-abandonment and said yes to the life I’m here to live.

And from here, there is no turning back.

08/25/2025

08/23/2025

We can’t think our way into aliveness.
We can’t analyze our way into presence.

Because aliveness isn’t an idea.
It’s not a concept.
It’s a sensation.

Aliveness is the trembling in your chest when you let yourself cry.
It’s the fire in your belly when anger finally has a voice.
It’s the softness that floods your body when you let yourself be loved.

Aliveness is the pulse of creativity, the spark of presence, the rush of knowing you are fully here.

And yet — we’ve forgotten.
We’ve been taught to avoid our emotions.
To intellectualize instead of feel.
To stay in our heads while our bodies hold the weight of generations.

But here’s the truth:
When you shut down your emotions, you shut down your aliveness.
When you welcome your emotions, you welcome life.

This is emotional alchemy.
This is nervous system reset.
This is generational healing — clearing what was never ours to carry, and returning to the wholeness that always was.

🌿 Cyclebreaker is an initiation back into aliveness.
A remembrance that your grief, your rage, your joy, your love — all of it is holy.
All of it is yours.
And the more you allow yourself to feel, the more you allow yourself to live.

Next Cyclebreaker: Equinox 9/21.
Applications are open. Link in bio.

08/21/2025

Every time I hold a Cyclebreaker, I am humbled.
Humbled by the courage it takes to sit with yourself.
Humbled by the way this medicine moves through each body uniquely.
Humbled by the miracles that unfold when people allow themselves to truly feel.

Because here’s what happens when we gather in this way:

“I feel like a weight has been lifted off of me… even my son said, ‘Mom, I’ve never seen you like this.’”

“I’ve never felt this clear in my life. Twice the time in my day. More energy than ever.”

“For the first time, I experienced complete stillness and calm in my body… a new layer of embodiment opened up in me.”

“I could step back, observe, and choose myself. Bufo awakened the inner knowing I always doubted.”

These aren’t just quotes.
They’re proof of what happens when you stop performing and start feeling.
When you shed ancestral pain, release old stories, and remember that your emotions are not a burden — they’re the very doorway back to your aliveness.

And I am in awe.
Every. Single. Time.

🌿 Cyclebreaker isn’t about chasing peak experiences.
It’s about becoming rooted, present, creative, and alive.
It’s about healing seven generations back and seven forward — through the simple yet radical act of coming home to yourself.

Next Cyclebreaker: Equinox 9/21.
Applications are open. Link in bio.

11/04/2021

🚨🌚Viritual Group Energy Healing Friday, Nov 5 at 4:44pm PST😭🚨

Can you feel this deep, transformative, ascension energy?

Here’s are 5 ways you can harness today’s potent Scorpio New Moon energy.

This is just the beginning folks. And we’re experiencing a lull to INTEGRATE, UPGRADE, & RESTORE your cells.

Join me tomorrow to release all that dead and dying baggage and transform it into embodiment of the deepest most true parts of you.

Link in bio to sign up.

11/04/2021

New Earth is here.
It is done.
It is done.
It is done.

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Excerpt from a Nassim Haramein interview recorded with Danica Patrick.

From Danica: "My guest today is a world leader in physics. The galactically charged Nassim Haramein. I have been looking forward to this interview for a long time, and I made the most of it. So much so, we have had to break it down into two episodes. Because I recently fulfilled my dream of visiting Egypt, part one of this captivating interview is about Egypt. Nassim has spent many years researching and analyzing the secrets of Egypt. As an expert in the field of proton energy, Nassim's equations suggest, un tapped, boundless energy available to us. His theories can even be use to explain how it was ever possible for the Egyptian, Mayan, and Inca pyramids to exist. Could they have come form a civilization far more advanced than our own? A civilization so advanced they could control gravity, and have a boundless energy source necessary for building such massive structures. I hope you enjoy this cosmic view of Egypt."

11/03/2021

The frequency of fear and excitement are two sides of the same coin.

Ready to co-create with the universe and make your quantum leap?

The power of the current energies are here to support your transcendence into higher states of BE-ing and love.

Your life begins in the other side of saying YES to yourself.

Did you know that the most common reason people are afraid to say yes to themselves is a belief system that was implanted by the matrix to control you and separate you from your power and divinity?

Ready to take the red pill? Join me down the rabbit hole. Comment 💊 when you’re ready to make the leap of faith.
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11/03/2021

Is this real life?

Are you currently living in a place that leaves you in constant awe?

Growing up in Los Angeles and living a good part of my adult life there I felt the constant urge to leave, but made myself believe LA was the only option for my career in reality television followed by being the SHE-EO of my own spiritual business.

Thank the heavens for your he VID. Because it was my awakening to a different way of BE-ing.

All that to say, FOLLOW YOUR BLISS.

Trust that nature’s got you.

Allow me to guide you on following your dreams. Allow me to be the midwife to turn your visions to reality.

It’s all possible when you not just learn the secrets to manifestation but truly being the EMBODIMENT of manifestation.

I’m opening 3 spots to work closely with me and I’ll share with you how to live your life UNTETHERED.

PS. Want to try out mountain living? We have a couple places for rent on our street alone! Come be part of our healing community.