07/14/2026
This is my first under a free bar in almost a year.
A year ago I could squat 225.
Only problem was I was in constant pain, couldn’t bend over without peeing, bled constantly and suffered 1-2 migraines per week.
Finally, about 10 months ago I bit the bullet and has a hysterectomy. I was told I’d be back in the gym in 3-4 months.. I wasn’t. I was barely surviving. EVERYTHING caused pain. I could barely get myself to and from work without wanting to cry. I had to plan household chores for days when I didn’t have to drive anywhere, and I could lie flat for a minimum of 4 hours afterwards. Social events were a nightmare because I couldn’t sit or stand comfortably for more than 30 minutes. I was so exhausted that I cried every single morning getting up for work because all I wanted to do was sleep.
But finally, slowly, things started to shift. I went pelvic floor therapy, I worked with my awesome trainer to find exercises I COULD do without pain. And I fought. Tooth and nail. To get back to the things that I love.
In this video you see me humbly squatting 65 lbs. What you don’t see is the raw grit and determination it took to get there.
And at the end of the day it’s not even about the bar. It’s about the fact that I bathed my dogs and mopped my floors yesterday and had no trouble driving to work, working AND going to the gym today. It’s about the fact that I could drive an hour to a friend’s dogs birthday party and sit on a patio with my friends, drive an hour home and feel fine the next day. So many little moments that were masked by excruciating pain for so long.
So hell yea I’m proud of these 65 lbs and you should be proud of wherever you are too. Social media is great at keeping us connected but awful in forcing us to compare ourselves to each other. No one else knows your story. No one knows what it took to get where you are right now. Be proud of that. Because I am. And I’m rooting for you too 💕