05/24/2026
Reflections
Looking back, what stands out to me the most was how calm and relaxed I stayed the entire time. I truly lived in “labor land.” My body was limp, my jaw and face were soft, my shoulders and hands were relaxed. At one point, Steve offered me his hand and said, “Squeeze it!” I calmly replied, “No,” and everyone laughed. That little moment perfectly captured the vibe of my labor: I was committed to deep relaxation and focus.
My eyes were closed the majority of the time. I felt as though I was in a different dimension, almost like an acid trip. Besides making sure all of my muscles were completely relaxed, I focused on my breathing. I visualized my baby coming down the birth canal. I spoke to him silently, reassuring him that we were in this together, and letting him know how great he was doing. We made such a great team, him and I.
I kept repeating my affirmations silently:
Relaxing my mind relaxes my muscles.
Every wave brings me closer to my baby.
I can do anything for one minute.
I knew that fear could trigger the “fear-tension-pain cycle”, something I had learned in hypnobirthing, and I wasn’t going to let that happen. I never felt afraid once. I never once thought to myself that I couldn’t do it. I had complete trust in myself, my body, and my birth team. The entire time, I was surrounded and supported by a team that was there just for me and my baby.
Yes, birth was hard work. Yes, it was intense. But I wouldn’t describe it as painful, the way I had once imagined. Thanks to hypnobirthing, I was able to stay deeply relaxed, keep fear out of the process, and allow my body to work the way it was designed. The only moment I would describe as painful was crowning, and even then, it was manageable and absolutely worth it.
I came out of the experience stronger, more empowered, and filled with gratitude: for God and the way He perfectly designed my body to birth my baby: and for the support of my husband, my mom, and my incredible birth team.